Yeah. I don’t know what to say about it.
I literally went from the person who would hop a flight to anywhere to a person who can’t shop for groceries. I can’t even seem to do Instacart or whatever it is. I need to go get a mani/pedi not because I am the kind of person who gives a shit about those things, back when I was a real person. But because I need stimulation to my numb legs.
I HATE to ask for advice because it annoys the shit out of me but I don’t have a doctor and have no idea what to think about this. I never expected to not be able to feel my legs. My response is I will just sit down and die. Is that who I am now? I’ve saved all my life to go anywhere and do anything I want to. And I am going to just sit here and die alone in the shack? I waited to die after Banjo did? WTF is wrong with me?
I literally can’t feel my body from the torso down. I haven’t had a doctor in years. So I do not know who to see about this. I’ve actually been to TWO DOCTORS who didn’t seem to really care. What I am learning is that you can only have one symptom or the fucking doctors get all confused. Wherever I go next I will have one symptom. Like, oh hey, I CAN’T FEEL MY LEGS. Is that normal or am I being whiney? Or perhaps you could help? If you know that is not too much trouble.
Sorry. You guys are my chosen family. I know I am asking for advice. But please don’t scare me in comments. Good vibes only please.