Y’all need to be sitting down for this one. Seriously, try not to pass out when I tell you this news. I’m having a good day! I know! I’m as shocked as you guys are! Yesterday, or maybe the day before I made it all the way to Whole Foods! It was a struggle, but I did it. I broke out in full body sweats the entire time. But I did it. I bought random things. I made myself go up and down every aisle for exercise. That liked to have killed me. I got a lot of things that I can only get there. I love all of their 365 products and mainly went for 365 electrolyte water and there was not much of that. That is hard to find in the ATL these days. And probably the most important thing I got was my vitamins. Publix has stopped carrying them. 🙁 I dragged everything in the house and curled up in a ball an died.
Then, after weeks and weeks of not eating AT ALL, I began to eat all the things! And I liked it! Then today, the SUN CAME OUT both literally and figuratively. Banjo and I even went on a short (still exhausting) walk outside. I thought he was going to have heart failure. I can count on two hands the number of times we have walked since Covid got really bad. Tomorrow, the rain is coming back. But, I feel like if I keep drinking the water, eating healthy foods (bananas seem to be helping) and taking my vitamins, who knows what could happen? A second shower for the week? Maybe was a dish or three? The sky is the limit!
Meanwhile, I might need a nap after that walk. LOL. I spent the morning reading online and watching Ru Paul’s Drag Race (it premiered this week) and catching up on Sistas (Season 4 premiered this week and it was good!). Today may be the day I finally get around to figuring out how to play Wordle. I read the directions but didn’t get it. I guess I’ll have to learn by doing?
I know that some of us are still struggling and I hope this post encourages you for a change, but also, I don’t want it to stop you from venting. I know venting to you guys always makes me feel heard, and sometimes better. Also, Bob Marley makes everything all better. So tell me, how is your weekend going?
P.S. When TMZ’s big story is that Will Smith farted (I am not making this up), you know it is a slow news week. I have been trying to get the real story about the RHOSLC reunion and am waiting on a reply. Other than that, there’s not much to report. Or so I tell myself. Saturday is my day off. Offish. Kind of not really off. lol. xo ~tt
Yay! That’s awesome news!
So glad you are feeling better.
Can you ask your source if they have intel about the Real Housewives of Dubai? LOL!
My source has only said that it is going well. But I think my source knows more… IJS… 🙂
I’m dying to see Caroline Stanbury’s blowout Dubai wedding!
Does it make a lunatic that I stalked her guests Instas? There were lots of cameras there so it was obviously filmed. Also Juliet Angus, Caroline Fleming, Sofie Stanbury, and makeup artist Luke Henderson were all in attendance so they filmed a Ladies of London reunion.
I need help.
I’m excited too! I’m dying to go to Dubai.
Not trying to push buttons but why would you want to go to Dubai. It’s such a horrible mix of excessive and repressive. You only need to scratch the surface and it’s not all glitter and gold. There was a documentary on the BBC which was meant to show the wealthy of Dubai it only highlighted how shamefully those who have exploit those who haven’t.
Because it is a safe Muslim country for American women to travel alone too. I’ll also go to Abu Dhabi, I tried REALLY hard to get a teaching job there years ago. I’d go back to teaching if I could teach there. My biggest regret in life is backing out of a teaching position is Saudi Arabia.
BTW, the US is not exactly perched upon a moral high horse for how we treat immigrants, or the disenfranchised.
There are good and bad things that haopen in every country. Even this one. Doesn’t mean we shouldn’t travel and experience the good things they have to offer. Trying to shame someone for wanting to experience something is not nice. And a little patronizing.
Yes, USA shouldn’t be a moral compass for ANYONE.
TT I’m jonesing to go to Dubai also! Go with me and Mike!
I’m hoping that I have a long, long time before I am free to travel again (Banjo) but whenever that is, I’m ready. Although, I’d rather we get to a point where masks on planes are not REQUIRED. I still plan to wear one but I can be a bit claustrophobic on planes. I’m the girl that sits in the window seat with my air nozzle on full blast pointed at me and get there early enough to steal the middle seat air too. Though by the time I travel again, I will have enough Delta miles to fly first until I die. You know, if I properly time the whole dying thing. Somedays feel like I won’t live to see another plane ride. I’m already stressed because I know for a fact I won’t be able to get my suitcase in the overhead and the flight attendants pretty much refuse to help. So Mike would come in VERY handy. LOL.
Glad you’re feeling positive the winter;s tough to get through at the best of times. Googled Mary Cosby affair and came across Sharell’s World on you tube where she was interviewing Mary’s cousin Dad. It was explosive and if any of the ladies had known even a fraction of what he said before the Reunion it’s no wonder she didn’t show up. It really was disturbing and shocking.
Happy to read you were out and about. It always makes me feel better but is a struggle to do it now because of this COVID. I got COVID on the 26th of Dec. and don’t know where the hell I contacted it because I have literally made myself a hermit while all my friends are blowing and going and having lunch, etc. My doctor sent me out of town to a hospital to get the IV. I guess it helped but I am still having problems mainly coughing nonstop. I think I’ve fractured my ribs. WIll know more Tues.I saw on TV today where the doctors reported that there are more people getting COVID that have had the vaccines WHICH I HAVE HAD. My husband has not gotten it and he’s been by my side waiting on me hand and foot.
Tamara it will make you feel better to get out and about and some fresh air. I just find it hard to do what I preach. At my age, it is easier to lay around with the dogs and read or watch TV, play poker online or COOK which I love to do if you could see me you would agree. As my hub says I’m just a load of fun. He calls me “BigSug” a cute term of endearment.
I quit watching Housewives of Orange County when Heather jumped Shannon. I detest Heather and adore Shannon. Shannon is a good soul that is filled with guilt because of her children not having their dad around. Only a good Mom could identify with that feeling. It’s not that she loves their Dad it is just she wanted her daughters to have a father around. That jerk went and married a young woman and had another kid. He makes me want to vomit even looking at him when he was on the show. Oh well……I’m off track as usual……Glad you are sleeping and feeling better. You and Banjo keep each other close. supposed to have some crazy weather.
I have been double vaccinated. Did not have a chance to get the booster yet when I got Cove it in October. I went to the hospital for the IV Cove treatment and it tremendously helped. Coughed for a while after that and I’m still losing my hair but had a shorter time with the Covid I do believe with the ivy Covid treatment. I hope you have a easy recovery. Not everyone qualifies for the IV Covid treatment. Both my parents got the treatment the day before I did. My sister did not qualify for it but she had a mild case of the Covid at the same time.
My 22 year old daughter and her military husband in Florida both tested positive yesterday. So far very mild. Its hard as a mom in another state to not be able to check in on her in person. Luckily Amazon is a way to ship her everything I can think of. At home covid tests are put for a week but I ordered her a couple as well
Prayers for complete recovery soon! 🙏❤️
Yay!!! So glad you’re having a sunny day! You deserve it! 😎🎉
I was thinking earlier how the news stories are just fluff, filler, etc. I don’t want anything bad to happen, but yea I’m kinda tired of Kardashians & Kanye West stories. Will Smith farting was like a breath of fresh air after days & days of the other. 💨💩😂🤣
Okay that was weird as FUCK. I went to watch And Just Like That, on HBO Max and the new episode ended with Bright, Bright Sunshiney Day! It was bizarre!
It’s all gonna be a good good day. So thankful you got to get out and made it through Whole Foods.
Please let me know what you think about AJLT. I think it is missing on every mark. I HATE the fashion. I’ve never been a person who confused an actor with their role, but I found myself REALLY pissed when the ladies turned against Chris Noth. DUH! I was FEELING like our SATC ladies had turned against Mr. Big! It makes me sad when actors I liked turn out to be not who I think they are. (I do question all the years SJP, Jill Hennessy and Noth sat front and center at fashion shows.)
You just expressed my feelings! Thank you!
Well, I agree as well. Especially about the “fashion”. Also they are trying to do too damn much. Let’s acknowledge that black people and Indian people live in NYC! Let’s cover LGBTQIA+ in every possible permeation! Let’s send Miranda back to school to study black history! Let’s put Miranda in an LGBTQIA+ affair. Let’s make Steve half deaf both literally and figuratively! Let’s kill Mr. Big! Let’s dress Carrie like a hobo! Let’s have Charlotte be racially tone deaf! Oh and while we are on the LGBTQIA+ train, lets have Charlotte’s daughter cover the questioning part.
It’s all way too much. But, that said, I will be watching every episode. Whenever there is SATC marathon at night that is my sleeping show. LOL.
The characters story lines are too produced. In line with what Nanette was saying about actors and characters – its uncomfortable to watch Cynthia Nixon be so awkward as Miranda dealing with race. It’s also really awkward watching Carrie be uncomfortable doing the podcast like it’s so difficult for her when she was the one writing so openly about sex in SATC. The stories just don’t fit the characters. It feels like whoever is writing the scripts could have never watched SATC.
Exactly. Now Carrie is some sort of frigid old lady? It’s everything. All of it that seems weird.
https://pagesix.com/2022/01/08/friends-worried-as-chris-noth-feels-like-his-life-is-over/
Yes! The Steve thing! I HATE that they have RUINED that relationship AND that character.
I DO understand that women (or men) may realize after years in a hetero relationship that they were denying their own nature. I KNOW several.
But Steve and Miranda … reuniting on the Brooklyn Bridge … while Al Green’s cover of “How Do You Mend a Broken Heart?” plays! Another scene I SOBBED while watching. It’s like AJLT has RUINED every magical scene from SATC!
AND WHAT IF the stuff against Noth is not true? I UNDERSTAND how bad it looks. BUT the way the actresses acted IRL for YEARS does not jibe with their joint statement. So now AJLT is axing Big from the Paris scene from the finale! FUCK! (And why has not one source interviewed Noth’s longtime L&O costar Jill Hennessy?)
I did meet Chris Noth when I was in my mid thirties (he is 12 years older than I am) while I was working in Manhattan.
He did hit on me but I turned him down and he was a gentleman about it.
Those stories that came out were horrifying.
I know. It’s very unsettling. Like Nanette said, it’s hard to get the image of Mr. Big out of my head.
Thank you Nanette. I watched – I guess the first 2 episodes. I don’t like the storyline. I always thought Aiden (John Corbett) was nice-looking and a good guy, but I was always Team Big throughout SATC. Did NOT like Berger. Did not like the politician with Carrie. Was not a fan of Petrovsky. Team Big 💯‼️
Chris Noth had literally just come out in defense of SJP in the Kim Cattrall feud just prior to the allegations coming out against Noth. I’m having a hard time understanding how SJP and the other ladies were apparently fine with Chris Noth for decades. Evidently did not have or see issues to be sitting together at fashion shows and he was brought back for both movies and AJLT. SJP allegedly carries some weight when it comes to the shows/movies. So how do the ladies go from years & years of being supposedly ok with him to issuing their joint statement supporting the alleged victims almost immediately???? And I’m not victim shaming. That’s not even my point. I’m just trying to understand how almost overnight the ladies seemed fine with Noth and then issued their statement supporting his accusers, the alleged victims, before all the accusations had even surfaced. I don’t know what to think. He did admit to things occurring, but said they were consensual, which must be a huge gut punch for his wife. I’m not wanting to rain on a sunny day as I KNIW this subject matter w/Noth is dark. I’ve just always loved Mr. Big and it’s been shocking. I have been a huge SATC fan. AJLT doesn’t have the same appeal for me even though I’m the same age and it should be relatable. I’m just trying to comprehend it all.
For me it is the fact that the women are of a certain age. Now suddenly they are looking for black friends to invite to dinner? Discovering that people are born gay or the Kinsey scale? Or that black history is everyone’s history. Is all of this new information to them at this age? Were they too busy buying shoes all those years ago? They had gay friends!
Yea, they had Stanford and his dating life before he and Anthony finally got together. Are those years forgotten? The black history story line is too bizarre- especially for Miranda!!! She dated Blair Underwood on SATC. So she dated a black guy, fucked him on the regular, but now that she’s of a certain age she’s awkward around black people???? WTF⁉️
LOFL! There should be an episode called “Busy Buying Shoes.” THAT is the only thing that explains this debacle.
As MelG points out, Miranda had a serious boyfriend who was Black. Samantha had a longISH, seriousISH sexual relationship with a woman and had a problem with a Black friend when she started dating her brother. Carrie dated a pnasexual/bi guy.
This show would be better IF it had picked up where the characters left off — like in REAL LIFE. Years have passed. There ALREADY WOULD BE Black friends and gay friends. They were in professional fields where they connected with more than the Karens! They never liked the Karens!
Even Charlotte (“I’m from Connecticut!) married a JEWISH man (ALORS!) and was in the art world — representing EVERY DISPARATE “type” in NYC!
DO NOT EVEN get me started on how they RUINED the character of Stanford! In real life, people die and upset EVERYTHING we had planned. They missed the opportunity to show that. ❤️ Willie Garson. RIP
Lesbian love, facelifts, grey hair, children questioning their gender, hearing aids and hip surgery?! It’s all too much. I want so much to love this reboot, but the wokeness level is nauseating. Stop trying to suck up to every viewer/sub-culture/personal liberty and just make a show about rich women in New York!! SATC was never a true depiction of life, that’s why it was good. As for Mr. Big, it makes me sad. Chris Noth’s stupidity and perverse taints the way I’ll remember his character in the old series and the new one. And anything else he’s ever been in. Maybe the Russian would have been a better choice after all. I’ll watch until the end but the nails are in the coffin I believe. I don’t think they will have another season.
Over the holidays, when PageSix posted a photo of Noth alone on the phone on a park bench, I was instantly taken back to the scene on SATC that takes place on NYE. It is after the big library wedding fell apart. Mr. Big is seated at a bar. Alone.
With a giant steak and red wine while Auld Lang Syne plays. I remember sobbing, feeling so alone as I watched that episode. Life mirrors art.
Still hate watching. Agree with all above. To add they are in their late 50’s not 70s!!! The show lost it’s magic.
Edibles. You seem genuinely hapoy. Lol.
Yay for you that you went out and about. I, too, am struggling through fear of Covid. It’s like it is everywhere and can paralyze a person if you let it. I bet Banjo is happy to get out, too!! Glad to read that you are feeling better!!!
Don’t you just love that day when the sunlight gets through the cracks in our psyches? I wish there were a way to MAKE it happen.
So great that you and Banjo could get a walk in. I love the 365 products. They are good value. Except the toilet paper. I do not like the 365 toilet paper.
Never tried the TP, I’m a Cottenelle girl. I was at Publix a few weeks ago and once again all the cottenelle was gone, the last time I bought Publix brand and it was awful. The last time there was literally six packs to TP. I got like angel soft or something. There is never Cottonelle anymore. Or SmartWater (which motivated me to go to Whole Foods in the first place.
365 products I love: The olive oil is really good and very reasonably priced. Same with the cans of black and green olives, (why did I only buy one can of each?) there are these frozen fruit bars I buy the coconut (the best kind, already wish I had bought a couple more boxes ) And the mango. They are basically popsicle bars. YUM. I am trying to not eat them all at once. I buy some of their 365 lotions and potions sometimes. I normally buy flowers but nothing on sale appealed to me.
Can’t you dig the sunshine?
Love and sun are the same
Can’t you hear him callin’ your name?
Glad you are good, I am sick, just nauseated etc. I’ll be ok, so happy you had a great day!
Im glad your feeling good, and doing things, I dont have a whole foods near me, 1 1/2 hours away!
I wanted to make a note of whats happening in my neck of the woods. I live 2 hours from Buffalo, NY and their NYE party 1000 people went, and 3 people wore masks inside. Horrific.
Im excited about your tea on sale lake city reunion.
If history has shown us anything, if u skip the reason, your done.
Adrienne, Lisa, etc
Today was full of good and bad for me. My mom passed away 13 years ago today and I miss her so much! But so lucky to have had her for almost 39 years! My daughter was diagnosed two weeks ago with bipolar and has been in and out of manic highs. We are lucky because her doctor has been in constant contact with us, even calling us twice on Xmas eve and Xmas day. And even though her best girlfriend dumped her because she has her own mental health (I get it but hard to explain to my daughter right now), her best guy friend has been here for her all the time and he spent an hour trying to get all of the snarls out of her hair. He is so sweet to her. So like I said, thankful for much more than I will complain about. Sorry for the long post.
Bipolar stuff is tricky, but this probably is the best time to get a diagnosis because we know so much more than before. There are medications and CBT and awareness has erased SOME of the stigma.
Something that might help you and your daughter is to keep track of her mood swings. You might notice a 28-day cycle. My pain follows a 28-day cycle. My foster bird barbers her feathers on a 28-day cycle; the other sweet and tame one has a feisty couple of days a month — 28-day cycle. I can’t track whether my depression did over the years because everything changed (for the better) after menopause — again, the end to a major 28-day cycle.
Once I started noticing (besides that I just like observing/sorting info) a pattern, it gave me some solace AND control. Knowing that it is a part of something “natural” made me not feel so “outside” and it gave me a feeling of control because I knew when it was coming and that it would pass. Sometimes, I just had to hang on for the ride.
I hope your daughter will not feel so isolated and out of control now that she is in good medical hands, and has a loving and supportive mom.
Nanette what a wonderful post you write beautifully, your empathy cup runneth over.
Dawn I truly hope your daughter gets the help she needs and also as a family we need care and advice on dealing with the situations that bi polar bring into your world.
Much love to all
PS go TT for having a good day and the sunshine. I live in one of the rainiest places in the UK xx
Fart Week:
I just watched the Will Smith clip, which I learned about here.
I had seen — ad nauseum — the clips about the 90 Days “star,” who says she made $200,000 selling her farts in a jar, having a heart attack scare. Because of her “farty” diet.
I can only imagine people buy these as joke gifts. I mean, do you think anyone would have a jar of farts on their nightstand?
So … a hot young chick brings in $200k … I wonder how much Big Ed could make … I imagine he would have king sized jars for his farts. With visible fumes.
I recently read that she inspired Farrah from TM to do the same. But she takes a step further. After she poops, she wipes her butt with a cotton ball and puts the cotton ball in a glass jar. And sells it. Seriously. How much lower can she go?
I could have gone all day without that visual.
TT please recap Before the 90 days!! It’s really good so far. Also RHOM another good one.
I’m so happy for you! Drag race is the bright spot in my life right now. I’m so happy it’s back on.
I am so glad you and Banjo are getting out a bit! I’ve been dragging rock bottom with isolation due to spouses sudden illness, then Covid arrived. I’ve been tempted to unload on these open forums, but first reading thru the struggles others are experiencing, I feel like I just need to suck it up, and keep on keeping on.
I hope you know how much this site means to so many, who may not post much if at all. ❤️ To you, and all my fellow readers
SUCK IT UP? SUCK IT UP? THIS IS THE OPPOSITE OF THE PLACE TO SUCK IT UP! DO I EVER JUST SUCK IT UP? Well sometimes I do, but even then I grumble a little bit first to let you guys know I am sucking it up! LOL.
This is the place for UNLOADING and then suck it up back in the real world.
So UPLOAD. 🙂
I rarely watch HGTV, but ended up bingeing,The Ugliest House in America. Hosted by, Retta, the actress from, The Good Girls. I had no idea she was a comedienne. I laughed at her reactions to the featured houses all night. She hadn’t seen the interiors until filming. 5 episodes. Light, fun viewing.
The last time I watched HGTV I was on the treadmill actually RUNNING at the old people gym. Today, I am asking for praise for being able to meander through a grocery store. How far the mighty have fallen. 🙁 Maybe watching HGTV will motivate me.
I was sitting here thinking that maybe Banjo and I could do a quick lap around the school parking lot next door with Banjo before the rain came back. But alas, it is already upon us.
test post, I’m sick and was in moderation Thursday FSR, and just commented and it didn’t go through. The Horror! Hey everybody, have a great Sunday!! I just feel like shit -but I will be at work tomorrow! I cannot stay in this house another day!
Hey! Not sure why your comment didn’t go through. I didn’t see it in moderation. But, if you are sick, PLEASE STAY HOME. Hope you feel better soon.
I appreciated your sunshine-y post so much yesterday. I’ve been pretty even-keeled for most of the pandemic because I’m such a homebody anyway, but I was overwhelmed with sadness for the human condition yesterday. My sister had a good friend die a painful death, and another dealing with some very tough stuff. And I worry for my mom being lonely and also worry about how she is going out and doing things — it’s hard to know the balance between being supportive and being safe. I want so much to yell at her to stay home more, but it’s a catch 22 … We don’t have her over enough because she’s not being as careful as us, but then how can I ask her to stay home if I’m not having her over?… UGH! It’s sad for me that when I was a stay at home mom, she was working, and now she’s retired and I’m working full time. Too bad you can’t have free time at the same time as your parents.
So all of those thoughts were running through my head and I finally just went to my room and spent some time in prayer yesterday. I prayed for some of you too. Thanks for being there, all of you.
💜
SCREAMING INTO THE VOID CAN ANYONE HEAR ME?!
Wtf kind of Dr. Seuss upside down backwards ass shit is this to put the doctors back into the hospitals, CONTAGIOUS OR NOT, to treat the covid patients who are there because of the fucktard anti vaxxers while people with other Dx die in the hallways instead of denying care to the fucktards. Umm, there’s not even hazard pay or days off and it’s not like it’s on a volunteer basis. That’s MY kid who’s life you’re risking, and my other kid’s who is going to university where everyone acts like things are normal and don’t even bother testing them or require masks anymore. Do your job while you hike up tuition and cash those checks, universities.
Also, how many other ppl are stuck living with someone who is batshit 24/7/365? And the shrinks are still billing top dollars cash pay for virtual visits . Wt actual F? I’m seriously LOSING MY SHIT AS THERE IS NO FINISH LINE. And sorry not sorry, you can’t do a proper mental assessment of your patients, assholes, via a video consult. Perhaps instead of gross negligence as a shrink you might try consulting the people who are living with the crazy person and cleaning up the literal feces, repeatedly. And vacuuming up scabs that look like beef jerky.
SO GROSS. I’m just supposed to buy new sheets weekly? Because, not putting that in my washing machine. I’m supposed to be the sane one but I haven’t seen my support system for years now. And my own video consult to vent while you look at your watch and bill my card just ain’t cutting it anymore. The courts aren’t doing their jobs either because it’s been WAAAY past the time where they should’ve put her where she needs to be. It’s all so fucked up we just need to start the entire systems over from scratch.
AND WTF is up with the defeatist attitude regarding covid? It’s not a forgone conclusion that we’ll all get it. Mitigation efforts still work. The idiot factor is on full display & it’s scary af how many there are. The CDC has made a farce of messaging (who’s on first?confusing af) & sucking up to corporate greed. I want to be able to blame trump for everything but the idiocy is on both sides. WHERE IS THE ADULT IN THE ROOM FOR OUR COUNTRY? FFS, grow a pair & follow France’s lead…SOMETHING!
And I have to go back out into the world today with more weird weather warnings and I live where nobody wears masks & positivity rate is well over 50% and no science is acknowledged because fucktard Trump dick sucking politicians. I don’t have any basics left for food-not that I’ll even find it at the rounds of five stores I’ll make looking for it, because supply chain issues because everyone is sick because of the fucktards. A ridiculous and unacceptable circle jerk.
And to the ladies who hang out at the deli in the grocery store and wear a mask, but pull it down to place (yell) their order, you just negated the reason for wearing a mask. Own your stupidity and just wear a chin diaper like the rest of the half-assers. Ugh.
How am I doing? Not well, bitches, not well at all! Seriously, I am literally losing my shit. Today is the day. Here’s the internet documentation that today is the day that I officially snapped. Arrrrgh!
Okay, rant over. For now. Hopefully I’ll feel better later. I thought just putting it out in the universe would help. We shall see. Sorry folks. I need sunshine, a shower, and other stuff. Lol
PS- IJC stands for I.Just.Can’t. My nic got messed up some years ago and it got shortened. But my full name on here is really apropos today.
Thanks for the space, Tamara.
Oh honey, we can hear you. I am so sorry for your horrific situation. I don’t suppose there are any family members that can come up with some sort of assisted living for your mom? You really can’t keep doing this. I only made it a couple of days with my dying sister who was horrible right up to the end. I wish we could do something to help. In the meantime, we are always here to listen.
Thank you for replying to me in my moment of despair. I’m utterly alone, exhausted, exasperated, disillusioned and overwhelmed, and did I mention alone? It’s actually worse being alone with her than just being alone. It’s the no finish line part that is making me have an existential crisis. It’s a complicated situation and resources/systems are fucked up and making it harder. Basically no one wants her & no one else will take her. No one even wants to hear about her. She was exhausting and batshit and mean even before she got old. She’s a fucking nightmare even on paper lol. It’s complicated. “Horrible right up to the end” sums it up. I am begging for that end. I’m a pretty tough broad and this has tested my resolve.
I’m better today after crying myself into a tension headache, a hot shower and a long sleep. I live to conquer another day. The sun is out (Thank you, Jesus), and I’m going grocery scavenging.
I can’t even describe how much I appreciate the space you provide here and how much it meant for someone to hear me screaming yesterday. I’m now one of those people who cries when someone does something nice. Months on months of her screaming mean shit at me weighs on me even if I know she’s just batshit & mean. I know, it’s pathetic. But it’s true, so thanks for being nice.
Also, is it elder abuse if I put duct tape over her mouth so she stfu, as long as I take it off to feed her?
I’ll try to keep my meltdowns from clogging the comments but sometimes I just need to know that someone else can hear me so thanks again. I’m a hot mess. 🙂
I also worry about our friends here. Still praying for Jen, Cheryl, you & Banjo and others here and some who I have noticed their absence.
Well, sometimes we have to just take things one day at a time. I had planned to scavenge for groceries today but today is just not that day. Can you leave your mom in the house when you go to shop?
If so, you should do that once a day. Go somewhere. Go have an ice cream. Or a drink. Or get your nails done or so get a massage. Like AS OFTEN AS PRACTICALLY POSSIBLE. Or lock yourself in the bathroom for a bubble bath.
Self care is REALLY REALLY REALLY important at this time. Be kind to yourself.
xo ~tt
IJC, I hear you, babe, and you have my prayers. Covid has turned our world upside down. And while I miss my grandparents, dad and stepdad, my only consolation is the all died RIGHT before 4/2020. Like, all at the end of the year. It was all I could do to keep it together while helping my mom care for everyone. She and I both are only children, so there was NO one to step in. Well, except for my worthless ass cousins who my grandparents all helped get through college and received advanced degrees. I even once moved in with their mother, who was dying of cancer – do you think any of them helped, or at least acknowledged me? Nope. And I lost the job I had at the time cuz my dick of a boss wouldn’t extend my sick leave request. No good deed goes unpunished. Not to mention I deal with depression & anxiety, and the current dick I work for,just cleaned house, and here I am in my 50’s AGAIN trying to reinvent myself. Adulting SUCKS BALLS.
Shay, wow, so much in common! Same with the only child thing and crappy cousins. And same with depression & anxiety. And same with taking care of dad and grandparents. Literally NO one else. I thought taking care of the others would’ve prepared me for this one. Big NOPE. I also understand the consolation that the others who passed did so before this crap.
I’m SO sorry about your job. How daunting to try and reinvent in our 50’s. I do worry about you going to Florida and hope you’re not going until it’s a bit safer; but I also get just saying fuck it, lol.
TT’s one day at a time and self care reminder is basically how I’m going forward. Sometimes easier said than done. You have also been in my prayers since I first saw your post about your situation.
Thanks for your reply. Human interaction with other sane adults is personally comforting. I appreciate it a lot.
“Adulting SUCKS BALLS”. Yes. Yes it does!!!