LOOK ALL AROUND THERE’S NOTHING BUT BLUE SKIES! Y’all Atlanta has been a mess. There has been so much rain this summer. And I am very much effected by the weather. We have had two days of sunshine and I am nearly in tears at the happiness. In addition, I’ve had an avalanche of shit storms going on. Many tech issues with the site that are over my pay grade, but I’m the only person in my company. lol. I’m sleep walking a lot. It happens when I get stressed. So I wake up to weirdness. Like why is the toothpaste in my kitchen? I struggle to get in the shower, or brush my teeth due to depression which makes it even weirder. So hopefully having two sunny days to piece together is REALLY helping. I might even take a shower today. I know the people with no depression or anxiety will not get this statement. But I know others will. I don’t know why it is a struggle to eat or bathe. It’s just what is happening to me. And I am sure many others of you who don’t want to talk about THE CRAZY. And that is okay too. I always tell you guys what is happening to me.
The Open Forums are our safe place to share what is happening here as a family which I believe very much that you guys are my family, my support system, and my friends. When Mama died, she came back as a butterfly. I know that sounds crazy unless it has happened to you. I’m a Southern Baptist Agnostic. Raised in the church, have read the complete Bible and much of the Koran which is basically the same thing with different names sometimes. The agnostic part comes from not really believing that there is heaven and hell. Despite many fiery sermons. I do know that even in remote African tribes everyone believes in a higher power. I pray. I pray for all of us. And I hope it helps. I just don’t get a lot of how God lets horrible things happen to children. So I am questioning a lot. If there is a heaven, I hope I have done enough good deeds to get in, but that is not why I do them.
Wow I didn’t really see this post going this way. I’m just over here watching the NYTimes show on FX about Britany Spears. I watched The Challenge (so good by the way) on MTV on Demand. I’ve been exhausted for days and now I understand that I am sleepwalking again. And that is a little bit scary. What if I try to drive the car or roam the hood?
Sorry. Back to the good stuff. The newest neighbors have chickens. And while I am deathly afraid of birds after watching that Alfred Hitchcock movie (NEVER WATCH THAT MOVIE) I’ve always kind of liked chickens from afar. An the new new neighbors have chickens. So I am enjoying them. I don’t know why I am over sharing AGAIN. It is a apparently what I do. So PLEASE overshare in comments and I love you all.
I should probably warn you, I’ll be just fine. I’m happy today. As long as there is sun in the sky I’m happy. Off to watch the Britney doc. I tell my story all so tell me yours. And thanks for giving me a family. These Open Forums are about our big ole family. If you read this site, you are in our family. So feel free that this is a safe place to overshare. God knows I do. And I thank you all for reading this.