I just finally went to the Mexican drive through that is all but impossible for me to get to,. And I was the teensyiset bit tipsy so I gave a tip to everyone in the restaurant. I have been longing for food. And it is HORRENDOUSLY bad. Do you think the drive thru girl took the $70 for herself? I think I WOULD HAVE. LOL. I kinda hope she did.
I am going to bed. Talk amongst yourselves. Politics? No politics? I don’t care. I went out into the wolrd and it was not fun.
I may try to do a recap later.
I went out into the world today also! It was Sunny this morning so it wasn’t so bad. I hope the drive thru girl kept the money too. I have been trying to tip well during the pandemic. My Daughter was door dashing and she made NO money in tips. We are not in a metro area, but I was shocked by how many people do not tip. I waited tables when I was younger, so I know what getting stiffed feels like.
Oooooh! I just read two great books in case anyone is interested: The Other Mrs (I don’t have the author’s name handy) and Lying in Wait by Liz Nugent. They were both psychological thrillers. Each one took a day to read, that is how good they were.
On a personal note, I finally decided to tell my doctor that I wanted to become medicine free. I have taken Ativan or Xanax for 20 years and some type of antidepressant for around 15-20. I Amy find that I can’t be medicine free, so no judgement. I think I would prefer THC and that it might be more natural. Just thoughts. So, please send good vibes my way. I have a weening program from my doctor, but I’m sure this will not be a walk in the park.
Have a great weekend everyone!!!
Oh books!!
Thanks for the suggestions. Mine are more feely-feel good type books.
The Good Daughter by Jasmine Darznik. It’s a beautiful true story about mothers, daughters, and how one generation’s struggles impact the next.
The Dovekeepers by Alice Hoffman.
This one is not a “feel good” tale, but is beautifully written and poignant. If nothing else, you’ll feel less like we are experiencing the end of the world.
I hope you are able to find what works best for your anxiety and depression.
Wow!!! NO TIPS?
Talk about being Cheap!!!
I use DoorDash and I always tip.. I think you have to actively choose to not tip as it usually gives me several percentages to choose from and zero is not among them!
I tip the Walmart pick up at curbside people. I appreciate them soo much! Our rates of infected are so high right now I just love this service so much!
I always tip delivery people- Instacart, Doordash, etc. They work hard, and at one point Instagram reduced the tips to only 5%! I always tip at least 10%. I have become sort of a hermit during the Pandemic and appreciate all that. shoppers and delivery people do to get us our items.
I just went through this. It is tough for a week or so, but so worth it! THC gummies do the trick for me. Best of luck!
I slowly got myself off of my meds under the care of a doctor, and it wasn’t easy. Give yourself a break. You may have some major moods swings, headaches and dizziness. I literally felt what they called “brain zaps” that felt like shocks in my brain… BUT you can do it and will be proud of yourself when and if you do.
Meds are wonderful and there’s nothing wrong with having to take them. So if you can’t do it, there’s no shame in going back.
(Xanax and cymbalta for 15 years)
Yay for you! That is HUGE! I bet you felt so FREE when you were done!
I am down to two meds instead of 8. I was planning to get off my last pain med, but when the swimming pools closed… change of plan.
The Fiancé takes about 13 different meds. It’s EXHAUSTING just to take that many pills. We have to put them in those cases — days o’ week — to keep track. She literally has a medicine cabinet in her bedroom. Literally, hanging on the wall..
Thank you!! It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. I was single and trying to conceive via IVF.. I was approaching 40 and time wasn’t on my side. Although that dream didn’t happen, I’m proud of myself for doing it and making it to the other side.
Best of luck with your medication detox. IMO the slower — more time tapering — the better. When I detoxed from methadone, I took it very slowly because I knew my mindset was such that I did not want to go backward because I went too fast. If you have to do that there is no shame, I just, FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE, wanted to set myself up to succeed.
I hope yours goes smoothly.
Have you checked into breathing exercises, etc. for the anxiety? Those helped me too. I cannot take THC, but CBD is my miracle drug. CBD and aspirin!
Oh wow Nannette I heard methadone is very hard to detox from. Congrats! My doctor gave me a choice. Methadone or Suboxone. I choose suboxone to get of pain pills. I’m 2 months in and feel fine. Probably next month he’ll prescribe the THC for me – he said let’s get the suboxone started and take one thing at a time. The pain is still there but I’m dealing with it. I’ve already told my doctor the THC works, so it’s not going to be an issue for me to get my card.
My pain doc treats lots of vets for pain and PTSD. He says CBD is the most promising drug so far by miles. Studies ongoing.
He also says Suboxine is harder than methadone to come off from. Don’t let that scare you, just be aware that it MAY be. The key to PHYSICALLY detoxing is the ability to GRADUALLY TAPER. I am on a Schedule 4 pain med, but the ER formulation doesn’t come in doses under 100mg. I am going to have to open them and divide into smaller amounts without crushing the time-release beads, which I will need to try to distribute equally, (Finally, those cocaine line-cutting skills will have a higher purpose!)
Good luck and kudos for doing it with medical support. With your attitude and perseverance, I believe you WILL DO IT!
Thank you and same to you!
Brittany I am in the same boat – I have taken pain killers for 20 years due to an accident. I was afraid of the withdrawal so I just kept taking them – let me say I am still in pain, my back sucks. Anyway, in December I went in for my usual appointment and I said “I need to get off these pills”. He put me on a suboxone program and I am feeling like my old self. My doctor said let’s get this under control, then it’s onto the medical marijuana. It’s the only thing that truly helps with my pain now. I figured what the hell, I’m 63, in pain, gimme the pot LOL. Good luck to you! It wasn’t that bad for me, I hope the same for you.
Hey Brittany- just wanted to let you know that I empathize with your desire to wean off of the Ativan and the antidepressant. Doctors and big pharma have roped us in to these highly addictive drugs (in many cases), and they can help, but definitely have their down sides. I’ve had insomnia, I think since birth, lol, can’t tolerate the “traditional” sleeping pills and none of the herbs or melatonin have ever worked. Went to a sleep specialist a few years back who prescribed Ativan. I got off of it, but the key is slow, slow, slow- over time. It can also be good to be working with a psychiatrist vs a general practitioner, because they supposedly specialize in these types of medications (and weaning off of them). Or at least they should😊.
Anyway- I’m not a doctor and I don’t play one on tv either- just letting you know I’ve been there, it is possible, and I’ll be thinking about you.
My fave book of 2020 was “Viking Economics,” passed on to me by my best friend, a (surprise) Norwegian economist. It was a light fun & illuminating read, & I have, in turn, passed in on to my grandson, who I am trying to talk into pursuing a FREE PHD in Norway. Currently reading “Blowout” by Rachel Maddow about the skullduggery in the oil & gas industry, a Christmas gift from the same dear friend. Sounds heavy, I know, but Maddow is a fun read, & during my tenure as a federal employee way back when I was a member of an interdisciplinary team of research scientists charged with examining–wait for it–the oil & gas industry on the Pacific Outer Continental Shelf. So to me, this is a very fun read, but maybe not for everyone. (Note: Putin plays a prominent role, so you might want to check it out, anyway, if world politics in American industry is of interest).
Can’t remember if I reported on Santa’s largesse, but I must have been VERY good in 2020. I now have my first new car since 1962, when I bought a VW Beetle for $1600. I made myself a t-shirt that says “BADASS Jeep GODDESS” to wear when driving my new all-white Wrangler Islander.
It’s always wonderful to hear from you. Glad your holidays were so bountiful and you got a NEW CAR!
I will definitely check out both books. The NYT did an excellent story about the “changing of the guard” back in 2017 and the Russian ties to Trump and cronies. It’s long and detailed but so worth checking out.
Stay safe and enjoy bombing around in that new JEEP!
I started to have another nervous breakdown this morning, until I finally had a breakthrough in the kitchen: I made my own “guaca-pesto” for what I call “Cali-Mexi-talian Nachos”. It sounds weird, but IMHO it tastes great!
At least I finally cooked this morning, but I may have to order delivery for dinner again later. I still feel like an absolute hot-ass-mess.
Can I have the recipe? Welcome to the club. I am a hot mess too.
You’ve held it together for the whole election mess. That must have seemed like it was YEARS in the making. Just a little while longer …
That guacamole-pesto mixture sounds delish. Talk about fusion food. And stoner food too — bwahahaha. Good thing I was skinny back in those days!
Hang in there. You’re still here. Still able to string sentences together AND create recipes! You bad ass, you!
Welcome to the Hot Mess Express – TT’s the conductor
Having someone who can crack a joke to ease the tension or tell a story to calm you down can make all the difference in the world (Especially in our current climate). I’m a young (30yr old), neurotic accountant who has a lot of experience in making others laugh and talking them off the ledge. Longtime reader here and am familiar with your comments. If interested, ask TT for my emails. Good looking, humorous bro, happy to spread humor. Makes all the difference.
I have a friend who drank her way through quarantine, never went outside, not even to walk her dogs. Then she had two massive strokes. She is in a nursing home, learning how to walk and her dogs are in a shelter.
I think you should take better care of yourself
Oh no … that is horrible. Too too sad. Good advice.
Are the dogs up for adoption from the shelter? Will the shelter keep,them for her until she can walk? I hope so. She needs them when she comes home. 💔
They are up for adoption as a bonded pair and she is not allowed to have them back because they said she was neglecting them.
she is devastated and will make her recovery worse, she doesn’t even want to go home :((
I went out in the world earlier today also. I went a few blocks to the Family Dollar to buy tampons, so obviously I am already in a bad mood. The two employees working are standing outside the front door smoking. I go inside, they continue to smoke outside. I am in the store alone, I could have stolen all kinds of stuff. I go to the check out, stand there, and watch them STILL smoke outside. And we make eye contact, and they still continue to smoke outside while I am in the store alone. Finally one lady comes inside, doesn’t put on a mask or wash or sanitize her hands and checks me out. WTF is wrong with people? Now, I do myself enjoy a cigarette with a glass of wine, but I cannot stand when people smoke directly in front of the entryway of a place.
Last weekend, I gave a $40 drunk tip to the pizza delivery person. You can never tip too much. Again, for the people in the back, you can never tip too much.
A-fucking-men! About the tip.
I hate when cashiers/sales people, etc. do ANYTHING personal,when they are on the clock and there is a customer. But OUTSIDE. SMOKING?
I never went through the shoplifting teen stuff — I HATE stealing. BUT, I think I would if that happened to me. Unless it was a mom and pop. Then, I would tell the owners I COULD HAVE stolen!
I literally had to walk through their cigarette smoke to open the door. I am pretty laid back and understanding, but I really had a moment where I was about to turn into a Karen. Things are hard, but put out your cigarette so I buy some tampons. Why aren’t you smoking out back?
I don’t know about other states, but in California, smoking needs to be (can’t remember 20ft.? maybe 40ft.?) from ANY doorway. Most stores forbid or strongly discourage employees from smoking in front. AND REQUIRE TO DO IT ON THEIR OFFICIAL breaks.
It used to piss me off when smokers would take extra smoke breaks while the rest of us kept working on SHARED tasks (newspaper deadline).
Sending all peace and strength
Ooo girl… a $70 drunk tip.
I hope you give yourself a breather. Turn off the news. Turn on some good old music. I love Cat Stevens when I’m feeling like the whole world has gone mad. Or some Luther if I just want to vibe and sing. Whatever works for you.
I am worried that you ventured out in this state, “tipsy,”. I hope I’m just being a nervous mama and my visions of “tipsy” are exaggerated.
We have never met and when I first started reading here I thought it was a tad hostile. But since joining, I’ve found you to be very warm most times. Raw and honest at others and I am so glad I started posting here. There is this wonderful freedom where I can say what I want and no one even MENTIONS my typos, or mangling of english spelling!! Love yas for that alone!!
I have NOT ventured out. I have health problems as does my MIL who lives with me. We DREAM of fast food! Food I turned my nose up at last year, now has me salvating. Taco Bell! Mickey D’s!!
*le sigh*
Wish you and everyone else here a healthy and SANE Covid season!
I have not been in a restaurant or store since March. All the food I eat comes in huge orders from Costco. I was totally missing special treats that I. Or ally would pick up at the store or order for dessert when eating out. Last night as a surprise My husband ordered me a quart of very expensive ice cream through Doordash from a local shop. It cost a fortune but was the best thing ever!!!
We Just need to hold on a couple more months🙏
I am trying to lose weight since my doc says my liver is fat and I am one step away from having “the sugar aids.” I had bought some sugar-free ice cream and had some last night (Breyers Salt Carmel Swirl) and it was damn good! I may be able to survive yoghurt brekkies, 500 calorie lunches and snackie dinners.
Be well, everyone. To quote Steely Dan, “Love your Mama, love your brother,love them til they run for cover.”
(turn that heartbeat over again)
A really good and healthful plan is Louise Gittleman’s Fat Flush.
It aims to detox the liver, which aids in weight loss and feeling better and being more healthy.
We are back on strict keto and I am going to Fat Flush For Lentil! The two plans overlap, fat flush is more restrictive. But you can eat a lot on both plans.
Drag Race is a wonderful escape right now. I am trying so hard to stay away from the news ( like CBS and other AP news outlets) but I can’t stop. I grew up reading the local newspaper with my parents and we always watched the national news while we ate dinner together. My parents always always made it an important part of our daily lives to watch local and national news broadcasts together. I really hate these “patriots” that claim they are “fighting for the Constitution”. How can anyone defend the crap that happened week? It is awful.
TT no more tipsy driving!! Can you imagine your mental state sitting in a jail cell for 10 hours with a bunch of people and no social distancing. Be safe
Oh gawd! A fate almost as bad as being in back of a paddy wagon with the insurrectionists.
Noe. Noe. Noe. Noe. Noe. Noe. Noe.
Perfect example
MAFS Australia is coming back to Lifetime! It looks like it’s Lizzy’s first season, before the one we just watched where she met Seb.
Something to look forward to 🙂
TT, do NOT drive around tipsy! seriously, imagine being in a cell with people. Can’t you do DoorDash or GrubHub? I go out in the world and just drive around all over the place. I play the Spa/Calm channel on Sirius and it’s a very soothing time. All I’ve been reading are the political books, from both dems and repubs. Very interesting and very many moments of just SMH…. I throw in a few chic lits for a breather. I got addicted to (in March) to Lily’s Garden, this crazy video game on my Kindle that I can’t stop playing when I have down time. It’s good for the brain. Especially since I figured out the tricks to winning. As for meds, I’ve been on Paxil since 1999 for horribly severe debilitating panic attacks and I am never stopping taking them. But good for you for being brave enough to stop. Keep us posted. Besides my meds for UC, that’s all I take. I will say that meditation is very helpful for anxiety. I also watch comedians like Sebastian Maniscalco and all the Comedians in Cars Getting Coffee. I find laughter to be the best medicine of all. Then again I have an extremely warped sense of humor. I mean I still have the VHS tapes of the Perot debates which were the funniest debates ever. And my fur babies who are more important to me than any person in the world. My sister got me this t shirt for christmas that says “I love my cats and maybe 3 people”. Honestly, it’s true. Been super hot here in OC lately and extremely dry so everyone is having sinus problems. Has anyone gotten the vaccine yet? This state cannot figure out how to get it to the people. They are asking thousands of people to line up at Disneyland which to me is like… get covid while waiting for the test. No thanks. And everyone?? Let’s pray for this country this coming week. Whoever you pray to, however you give out good energy – well all need to direct it to…. Pray for peace, pray for Biden/Harris’ safety, pray for calm, pray for clarity, pray for sanity and pray for our law enforcement and National Guard.
I didn’t mean test, I mean to say…. get covid while waiting for the vaccine…..
We need a GIANT PRAYER CIRCLE to pray for all of the things you pray for!
God bless us every one too!
Glad to hear you got out TT, I go out everyday, lockdown or no lockdown, I avoid contact with others but take my son to school, pop into the local store and visit my Dad, who is currently recovering from Covid, I tend to get tipsy once I’m back home, please do the same and stay safe…we need you 😍🥰❤
I wanted to agree that riding around in your car going nowhere is really relaxing. It is like freedom. These days I have to drive around between 5 a.m. and 8 p.m. as there is a curfew here. Go figure. I roared with laughter Nanette at the vision of being in the paddy wagon with insurrectionists. I am still laughing. I think this time next year may be better. But honestly I think we might have another full year of this crap. I hope all of you are keeping sane and happy stuck in your homes. We are totally shut down except for grocery and pharmacies. You can go to work and kids are back in schools. I guess it is worse here because it is winter where I live and that means outdoors is limited to getting in and out of the car and shoveling. TC all and be healthy. Hugs and Kisses from Quebec.
I can’t wait for this to be over. I am seriously losing my mind and wasting all of my good 30s and single years in the house and not able to meet anyone lol.
I have zoom court coming up with my neighbor and he’s being harassing again. The only place I go is to my farm to take care of my horse, and I’ve been walking up there every day, and he’s in the woods banging stuff, shooting his gun. I get a sick feeling when I hear the branches break while I’m up there but I just ignore him now..I figure he can just shoot me at this point rather than scare me away from the only place keeping me sane during all of this. I’m sure he’s just mad that Trump lost. I should be the one harassing him since I have to work 55 hours a week to afford a lawyer for all of his bullshit, but I’m not demented like he is..I just want him to leave me alone. And leave my senior horse alone who gets scared by all of his antics.
Wait, is that even legal? Him shooting his gun near you???? Or are you out in the “wide open spaces” and he thinks it’s okay?? What is wrong with people?
It’s not legal, but he’s a police man so he can do whatever he wants I’ve been told.
I will include you AND your horse in my 🙏🏼.
The care you give her is healing for both of you — experts say, and I believe.
Thank you, Nanette..I really appreciate that ❤️
Jenn, I’m sorry you have to deal with this neighbor who like many others have lost themselves to a cult of hate. It’s scary to know how many are in the police force but also not surprising as they love to bully people.
I miss having a horse but I couldn’t afford it in California. That your neighbor doesn’t care about the stress he is causing to you and the horse says everything about him.
Thanks. He’s a prick and I’ve let him scare me away in the past, but I really have no fucks left to give about myself currently, but my messing with my horse is just abhorrent.
OK, this comment is about the picture of Todd Chrisley included. I’ve watched Chrisley Knows Best for several years, and read about the tax issues, filing taxes etc. So is anyone with me in thinking the Chrisleys are total grifters, in for the long con? And now the next generations is being groomed the same way. I still sometimes watch the show, and feel guilty. Am I alone in this thinking? THX all.
um are there more weird photos being posted? This seems very off topic.
That’s a photo of Todd Chrisley heading your blog post.
You don’t say….
If having tax issues meant grifter then Trump is the biggest grifter of all time. LOL. I enjoy watching the Chrisley’s, they’re a hoot
As I sit watching the snow fall I feel trapped and angry. Trapped by the cold weather, trapped by covid and the restrictions that come with with., angry at Trump’s lack of response to the virus, not enough testing, no masks, no contact tracing, no isolating of the sick and asymptomatic, they didn’t even try to mitigate the spread. Trapped in a country that represents 4% of the worlds population but 21% of the deaths. Surrounded by idiots that believe Trump won the election. Angry that Terrorist stormed the Capitol because of lies they’ve been fed. Angry that I cannot attend the Inauguration because I’m trapped inside due to the Virus and now I’m angry again. Grrrrrrrrrrr
Yolanda, this shit really sucks. I am losing it. Like seriously. Every day is fucking more shit. I’m not doing well AT ALL. This whole fucking thing sucks. BUT… we have this site to vent on, and well… I’m trying.
Well.. my baby girl is on her way to DC because the orange cheetoh incited a riot. She is a combat medic in the NG of my state. Prayers for all our men and women heading there
You should be a proud momma and we will be praying for your girl.
Thank you soooo very much! ❤️