First of all, Thanks to all of you for your kind comments. On my latest meltdown post. In a pandemic, when nothing is happening, there is a lot of stuff that is going on with me. Just like there is all kinds of stuff with you guys. Frankly, I have it pretty easy over here in comparison to a lot of people. But my mental health is not the best and I get overwhelmed with anxiety especially when it comes to financial decisions. Today is the cut off day for health insurance and I have decided to skip yet another year. I don’t want to be trying to meet a huge deductible during Covid. So let’s hope my lungs and liver take the self abuse for another year. 🙂
Also, I realize that my Covid brain and anxiety and the political climate has taken a toll on my work. I’ve been crankier than usual. And I need to get back on track. No one needs to hear my whining when we all are dealing with a pandemic. And finally, about that post, no comments do not matter. Just coming to my site helps. That said, you comments give me the only interaction I have with people other than Twitter and my occasional drunken phone calls to you guys. Comments make no financial difference. It’s just that I was missing you guys. That is the pathetic truth. And when I post and get few comments, it is fewer interactions.
Lots of you have been here for a long time. We have had people come and go. People have surprised me in many ways. I recognize that I need to loosen up a bit on comments. I was trying to keep politics out of this place and then found it impossible. It’s literally just not possible. So I made political posts for everyone to talk. I know that I want, and you guys want a place to get away from it all. But it just doesn’t seem to be possible. Never in my lifetime, and I is OLD AS FUCK, have I ever been terrified as I am by this President. This is not democrat or republican situation I’ve been republican leaning Independent for most of my adult life. We have a mentally unstable president. It’s very hard to not mention. We are in a pandemic and there is no one at the helm of this country. You may think things are fine and you are welcome to your opinions but I am terrified. He still has the football for almost a month. I apologize to my republican friends here. I am sorry if I ran you off. When times return to normal, if they ever do, politics will go to the back burner here again. But please try to understand, we are pretty much last in the world for getting through this shit because our dear leader is telling everyone it’s nothing. It’s just like the flu and it is INFURIATING. New Zealand, Singapore, South Korea are all pretty much back to normal life because they took the steps to get there. And THE BEST COUNTRY IN THE WORLD is pretty much last.
Anyway, I am terrified about the current person in the office of POTUS. I have increased anxiety. I’m furious over health insurance being the price of a car every year. So I opted out again. I’m lonely. It is a dark cold winter in the ATL lately. I’ve been in quarantine since 3/13. I’m not doing well. So thanks for hanging with me if you can. I think of Ingrid all the time and all she has been through and so many of you have gone through real shit. And my problems are minor. Also please send up some prayer for “my fiancé” Cindy this morning as she is having surgery. And for he roomie Nanette who has a lot going on.
We all have a lot going on. So I am going to try to be kinder. I have no idea why we have such a great group of people here. And I hope we can all stick around and get through this together. And I think we should include the haters. I am letting more of them through. I suppose some of them are the cat ladies. I’d kind of love “I only have one taco a month and no cable” girl to come back. I literally tried to buy her tacos and fix her cable issues before my surgery. Le sigh.
So to recap, I’m doing the best I can. And the comments do nothing for revenue. I just want to know someone is still out there. It’s kind of lonely over here. And thanks for letting me know you are out there.