I’ve been curled up in a ball sobbing for a couple of days. So I can’t help much. I could not even log on to the site. I am going back to bed to cry, but just know I am having a mental breakdown with you.
Getting So Many Emails From People At The End Of Their Ropes
We see you. We are reading you. We are listening.
You are not alone.
I am very sorry you feel that way.
I know things will change and get better.
Take care of you. We love you, Tamara.
Thanks Manda most of these TV shows seem so dumb at the moment. And when I try (stupidly) to talk about important things like Brionna Taylor and all the different information there it doesn’t go well. And I still don’t get how cops get to break into a house where no suspected criminals are and shot a billion bullets. This should not be happening. I don’t know how this could happen.
If you like news that is not THAT biased, I am watching/recording CBS with David Muir. It is almost like a real NEWS and not opinions and is only 30 minutes. The FL government apparently wants to kill everyone too, I am starting to think we should just let Trump convince the red states to open bars and restaurants. We truly need the stupid non mask wearing folks at Trump rallies to die SOON before election day. Let them all go to rallies and bars as much as possible.
I hope you will all pray for me to the deity of your choice because my reaction the idea of covidiots wiping themselves out en mass was to laugh.
I also hope you feel better Tamara.
I’m just not doing good at this. And people thought I would be fine because I don’t usually leave the house much. But now I do it EVEN LESS. And the clerks at Publix would talk to me. I would have some shoutouts over the fence. I would see people go by. But now one is really even moving around in the hood. It’s like a deadzine here, It really sucks. And the cat ladies are back? No, just NOE.
Tamara, I enjoyed our talk last week and just know we are ALL in this shot show together!!
?shit show.
Lucy always makes me smile. xoxoxoxoxo ~tt
I am pretty new to this site, however – hand hold?
Don’t understand why cat ladies (who?) being back is bad but am sure Banjo will stand his ground.
Virtual Jamon being sent! Xx
LOL LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG Story on the “cat ladies” it’s just term nothing against cats. But yes I am emotionally needy before all of this shit, And I would appreciate a virtual hand hold.
I saw those comments and typed out a response, then I deleted it because I realized I didn’t want to give it any attention. Hope things improve soon.
Jesus CHRIST! I try to just check in on the news with David Muir who seem to still be a journalist. It’s thirty minutes I can do that. THEN HE GOES TO BRAIN EATING AMEOBAS KILLIING CHILDREN? I can’t take brain eating ameobas, giant owls, Corona virus, Trump, and the end of the world as we know it right now.
TT, we are here for you and each other. I know exactly how you feel. I cry every day, sleep pattern is way off and don’t have friends anymore. I still think we all need to find our island. The best quote I heard recently is I may be a republican but I’m not stupid. This is such a scary time now.
I’ll join your island of “I MAY be a republican but I am not stupid.” If you just vote blue no matter who this year. Trump is not a Republican and so many fools just folded to him. In fact I may never trust that party again. Lindsey Graham is licking his asshole but called him out first.
I know this is just sad and pathetic. I should be fine, I am not fine. And please don’t buy that green swearter. If you are four years old I can send you mine.I guess i WILL GO back to bed now.
After storm Sandy happened here, and I survived the recovery period, I considered myself an “expert” in disasters. I was even working towards a degree in the field of disaster management because I thought that I would have something to offer people. Something about trauma of things not being “normal” and disasters and resiliency.
Then this shit-(2020) happened. I am now studying Java programming. The scale of this shit-storm includes just about every person on this planet. We need each other and we need you too TT—thanks for being here for us.
I thought it was just me that was at the end of the emotional rope with this shit show. And I get folks attacking each other on Facebook, bosses expecting me to work 24-7 because were teleworking. Ok, breathing. Group hug and we be better soon….I hope.
Group hug INDEED. I just want to hug the next random maskless person walking down my street. I’m not a hugger. It’s like a family holiday thing everyone runs to hug me. I didn’t really get how much I needed that. Zero human contact. No physical touch at all. That has been the hardest thing to get through that I never got the importance of before. Back when I used to church there was always kind of a moment when you hugged the people next to you. I did not care for that part. If churches ever open up again I’m going to go around like a blithering idiot hugging all the congregation.
When I was feeling some type of way, people would be like Do you need a hug? And it was genuine sometimes and sarcastic at others. I mean I have no problem hugging people and would hug everyone here and there BUT I DID NOT HAVE ANY IDEA how important that was. When this shit is over I am probably going to get arrested for hugging all the employees at my Pulblix who help me get my groceries in the trunk. I am going to hug the holy hell out of my new fantastic neighbors who check on me just enough but not too much. I am going to hug people with Free Hugs Signs. I am going to fly around the world and hug each and every one of you.
I am what I like to refer to as a HUG THUG. I will hug any all person or persons who ask need one or look like they need one. Respectfully as I understand it everyone likes to be hugged but this HUG THUG loves it. Much like TuPac Shakurs Thug Life tattoo I am a HUG THUG stenciled in buttercream frosting across my favorite baking apron. That’s what we need twin MATCHING APRONS FOR CHRISTMAS!!! LOL.
xo Marc
Love that Marc!!!!
HA! This made me LOL. I’m germphobic (and now you all are too) and I hated that part of church. Don’t touch me but peace be with you. 🙂
I’m still germphobic so I will never like that part but I get what you’re saying.
One thing I dislike about the masks is that no one smiles at you. I smile my head off inside of my mask and people barely make eye contact with me. I’m only exaggerating a little. This all sucks. And, I miss my parents. I want to see them but I don’t want to cause them to get this virus.
Lastly, I have been invited to so many weddings lately. I don’t like being in that position. I don’t want to let them down. But, every time I get out of quaranteen I have to stay away from my parents for 14 days. It’s all so hard. And, I don’t think it is going to be over soon.
I never had enough sympathy for ancestors who went through the 1918 “Spanish” flu. They were dealing with the pandemic while going through a war.
I was invited to a huge destination wedding at a Four Seasons, this month, last month, another month I have no idea. I would have actually gone if not for the whole Corona nonsense (despite uncomfortable family situations and enormous expense. I will say that I got a very fast thank you note for the gift.
I am also watching Fox News… I need to know how they are spinning this. And they are playing this song on the way out.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=-M7vOnlcLbo
How is that a thing? And FOX is sort of “on the fence” about Trumps crash and fail.
I initially had a big ol post about what has happened on a national stage, but I realize that is not what is needed. Lots of highs and lows this weekend.
But some advice? I went to a department store for clothes for the first time since probably February, and then went to Target (I’d been there for some OTC meds once during the pandemic). My mood lifted so much, even tho there was one dude not following mask and distance rules. He was easily avoided.
It was such a mood lifter to just browse for shit I don’t need. T, I know that your water aerobics are probably still not available. But is the Zoo open? Or something like it? I’ve never been to Atlanta, but know you have a Zoo (bestie has in laws there). If they are like my near ish Zoo, there is one way paths, social distancing, and a mask requirement, all outside. Make your reservation and go there for a walk around people and the animals. A change of scenery would do you good. Returning to habit like I did – going to a department store to buy a new t-shirt, could be good. Can you leave Banjo even for a couple of hours to do that? Or an outdoor walk someplace other than your neighborhood where you can take B (if he’ll go in the car).
I’m not crying a lot – but I’m crying at odd times. As I type this, I found Hook on TV. One of the Lost Boys, questioning that Robin Williams was indeed a grown up Peter, just pulled on his face and said “There you are!” and I started crying.
I would love to go to Target or Tjmaxx. This is going to sound dumber than I normally sound if that is possible. I like a table setting. My dining room table is still covered in tax forms. I also forgot to pay my quarterly taxes this month. FUCK. The good news is that there are not that many of us here this year so I probably overpaid already.
So here is a weird thing about me. I used to like to set a table for two. Like for no reason at all other than I like dishes and can’t seem to stop buying them. So as the woman with the most china on the planet… I started going TJMAXX and setting a table. I would pick out all the cool shit and set table for two eve though there was rarely a table,. These plates, these napkins, these napkin holders, these glasses. And then I would just leave it all there. The last thing I need is more dishes. But it was so much fun to play with new ones. I miss doing that because I am weird. And this week apparently I am a racist, and a cult leader and a shitty person just trying to get views. So I mean what do you expect of me? 🙂
I do remember shopping for groceries at Target during all this shit and THERE WAS NO ONE ELSE really in the grocery department and they have their own organic brands… So maybe try that.
And Banjo seems to be getting annoyed with me asking if he is dead. I just can’t always tell if he is breathing. He is.
You’re not a racist because you want to have a better understanding of what is happening and what other people’s life experiences are. I saw the hate being piled on you and that was so wrong. I have a coworker that has shared a lot of experiences she and her family have had, being a person of color. I’m so thankful to have someone who is open and willing to share and teach, and
I don’t have to be afraid to ask. A Racist would never ask, you’re not a racist. Haters come in every color and from every walk of life.
Amen. If you were racist, you would just ASS-U-ME.
People hear and see what they want. Then the go off, or MISrepeat. it to others. I call it “pulling a Tamra Judge.” She is too dumb to correctly comprehend what someone says, then spews it out all garbled and causes problems.
Omg I set the table for breakfast every night after dinner. We really are separated at birth twins p.s I don’t eat breakfast & neither does he but it is something my Maum & Nana did so I am just keeping up the tradition alive !
As a person of color I APPRECIATE when people try to understand WTF is happening. To label someone instead of sharing an experience is THEIR DOGGONE issue. UGH. I know the Breonna situation got messy, but that was because the AG was messy and misled folks listening to the press conference. Also, 2020 has been a monthly level of Jumanji, have mercy people we are all in this together and nothing gets better by attacking.
So, I hereby dub Tamara as NOT a racist and a seeker of opinion. But mostly this group is my sanity spot to share whatever with folks from all over. Thank you @tamaratattles, you are much appreciated.
Thanks Lisa. I have really been distancing myself from the news as much as possible. And people are right I normally investigate things. I don’t think there is a person on the planet who things Breonna Taylor deserved to die at the hands of aggressive police in her own apartment while sleeping. And still there has been no justice for her. I just don’t understand the situation fully. That is why I allowed links on this post. But every link seemed to be saying something different. Also I have COVID brain, I am drinking way too much to self medicate my anxiety. I’m not capable mentally of legal investigations. There is way too much conflicting information out there.
OMG, I thought I was the only one (set table just to set the table)
OMG, I thought I was the only one (set table for no reason, just to have it set)!
I’m not crying but when I’m not working or taking care of grand kids I am just sitting staring into space. I can’t seem to care about anything. I’m on fire all day every day, 7 days a week 7 am to 5pm for work…consulting with schools UGH! Then it’s grand kid time for 4 hours then I just sit and stare. I don’t sleep I don’t eat much…just coffee cigarettes doing what needs to be done to earn money and take care of kids then just staring into space.
I feel you Jo. I’m having a VERY hard time eating too. But I sleep A FUCKING LOT. And cry pretty much all the time now. Like everything on TV makes me cry sad things happy things… I am sort of a waterworks these days. I’ve always been sort of a crier so this shit just makes it worse.
Jojersey, you just described my day. Switch FB for grandkids and there you have it. I smoke and drink coffee. Come here to see how TT is doing, hang out on FB for a while, then I find myself stating off into nothingness. I cry every time something happens, then wind up sleeping for 2 days straight or being awake for 2 days. This whole year has been such a clusterfuck!! But at least I got my car (giggles)
TT, you know I’m here for you, and the test of the group if y’all want to talk or just call me and cry. I’m nice and caring that way. Peace and love to you all???
Life seems exponentially harder right now for some reason, probably because Winter is coming. And also the election. But fall is probably the best time of year to be outside…take Banjo and go for a ride in nature. Go for a walk with him some place that isn’t very populated. Enjoy Banjo while he’s with you, because as much as you feel like he’s holding you back, he’s really keeping you together. Hopefully next summer life will be back to normal, at least that’s what I keep telling myself to stay sane. <3
I live kind of close to a trail. I used to take him on it but he could never go as far as I wanted to. Maybe we will go and just walk to the first bench. And sit for a bit, Maybe. One day.
Walk to the GREEN area. Even a short walk.
I did this a few weekends ago when I was feeling particularly cooped up and it so helped!! We went on a trail through the woods — I love being in the woods — and then there was a little loop over to a clearing with a picnic bench and we just sat there for about an hour. It was less than a mile from home, but it was just nice to be somewhere different looking at different trees and different grass. Somehow it resets the brain a bit. I like the Target idea too. Who cares if you already have too many dishes… if ever there was a time to treat yourself, it’s now!
You are not alone! We hear you, see you and commiserate with you.
I am (typically) a huge Pollyanna, but 2020 may have broken me. This election, RBG passing and now a woman being nominated who terrifies me, have led me to being forlorn about the future of this country.
said to my husband last night, what other countries could we go live in? TT – given your extensive worldview, would love your thoughts.
Let’s all hang in there! I went for a drive yesterday, as fall in MN is truly spectacular.
I’m down to Costa Rica and Uruguay.
Please consider Peachtree City, You could get a golf cart and ride the trails. It’s fun, beautiful and will lift your spirits.
Hope you feel better. You need some bug changes in your life. Hopefully, better ones.
I hear you, Sending good thoughts.
Homeschool and working from home 24/7 is probably the worst thing that has happened in my life. I don’t see a solution for many months, so I have tried not to think about it and just keep going. We curbside everything, don’t go to the playground, don’t go anywhere. We just walk in circles around our neighborhood.
I can’t afford to lose my job. No one would accuse me of being mom of the year over here. I wish there were some cat lady nearby who wanted to play with my kid. It’s so hard and unfair to the kids.
I WOULD SO TOTALLY TELL YOU THAT YOU ARE MOM OF THE YEAR!
Please, my mother dragged me to live in Libya, beat me over the head with a hairbrush numerous times it all worked out great! It is going to be okay. You are a great mom. You kid will be FINE. TO DO YOUR JOB. Your kid will be there when you get back. Kid will not be traumatized. IT WILL BE FINE. Go do what you need to do TO PROVIDE A LIFE FOR THE KID .
I remember a story I heard years ago about a woman who thought she was a terrible mom. She was always rushed trying to get things ready, didn’t feel prepared ahead of time and rushed to iron her kids’ clothes in the morning right before leaving for school. Years later the child remembered it this way; his mom was the best because she ironed his clothes right before he put them on and he loved feeling warm and toasty on those winter mornings before going to school. It is all about perspective. Years from now I can imagine all these kids saying what they remember about 2020 is how much time they got to spend with their parents and the way they got to do things differently because they couldn’t go to school. More like an adventure. Perspective.
I don’t watch the news anymore. All doom and gloom all day long. I used to complain that there was too much sports and weather. I would kill for soccer scores from Argentina or long boring weather report, doesn’t even have to be where I live either. Now I basically watch videos, dancing babies, smart-assed cursing kids, dogs eating vegetables or tearing up the house, cats nursing orphan squirrels, raccoons eating with their little people hands and baby goats doing anything and everything. I feel my blood pressure go down immediately.
I’m telling you, you gotta watch the stand up comedy specials on netflix. Stop with all the murder, rape, children going missing, human trafficking, BLM, Antifa, Trump, Biden or news (fake or real) and anything that is negative. shit, most of Bravo is negative BS. You are putting this negative stuff in your brain and it really does affect you on a cellular level. This much negativity is too much for our brains to compute. You need to laugh. So turn on either Sebastian Maniscalco, Jim Gaffigan or old Seinfeld episodes, or old Frasier episodes or anything that is comedic. I barely talk to my husband anymore because he is like the grim reaper bearing bad news 24/7. Who needs this shit? I tune him out. seriously, give comedy a chance. You don’t just have to report on Bravo shit. Us followers with respond on anything you write about. Turn on some comedy!
I don’t do Netflix or any of those things. But I hear you. Thanks.
I totally agree with you, Gigi. I have escaped into the old comedy shows and even watching old black and white movies. Never in my life would I have ever thought that I would be watching old Seinfeld, Friends, etc. I try to not let any negativity into my life, because my coping mechanism is at an all time low.
I am trying to be careful about what I listen to and let in my environment. I only watch local news programs who show the news but are not talking heads who give their point of views and argue back and forth. For me, I get the news, are somewhat entertaining, and give me what I want to hear of what is going near me. I have really started filtering those RH shows. I do not watch the one that target castmates or bully others. I do not find that enjoyable or entertaining one bit and they only give me extreme anxiety.
I find myself crying a lot lately too. Things are do over whelming sometimes. Sending virtual hugs. I will check out the David Muir news show. Back to my Dodo animal videos. I love seeing the pets rescued.
I was trying to think how WE CAN HELP EACH OTHER HERE.
What I came up with is sort of basic, but maybe that’s what we need.
So … maybe how we were going to do Lentil Season this year.
We can come up with a few things that we know will be good for us and try to encourage each other to do them.
I read THE BEST article about what we know about coronavirus after 6 months. It outlined what we need to do and what things were not needed that we thought were, and WHY. It was GOOD NEWS. The virus is more fragile than thought and tests were done assuming the viral count in a droplet was 100 times more than actual, etc. I MUST find it. Because it is GOOD NEWS.
If we come up with a short list of things to do — such as, go outside every day for 10 minutes — and we an need an Official Accountability Coach, I hear Teddi is available, Bwahahaha! See, things are looking up!
I volunteer to be the un accountability coach. Take a nap eat a cookie buy that item you want on line rent that movie blast that music dance so everyone looks & points etc Life is short & we all have to practice STERN SELF CARE 365 24 7 until this fn election coronavirus & Covid 20 ( BRAVO television ) ends.
I love this idea!!!
Just lost second family member To COVID 19. Feeling very sad. No words.
I am so very sorry Carol. I lost my oldest friend in August. We don’t think it was covid, but autopsies are backed up. Not being able to have a memorial is tough. I hope this is the last one you lose; two is two too many.
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I’m sorry, Carol. We lost a family friend today (covid).
Oh Toddy. I am so very sorry. There really are not words of comfort for this situation. It’s just so horrible. Just know that I hope the fact that I care matters.
Carol my deepest sympathies. How sad to hear. Sending prayers your way.
I am so very sorry Carol. I had three family members who recovered and most recently a beloved uncle who died in a nursing home. I wasn’t told what he died from and we could not travel so… who really knows. But I assume…
Me and God are not that tight these days. But I will pray for you anyway, and hope my prayers send you comfort.
Oh my God, that’s horrible, I’m so sorry Carol. I get SO freaken angry when people insist it’s a hoax because they “don’t know anyone whose had it”. I don’t know anyone whose had lung cancer but I still believe in it. Hang in there, sending you virtual hugs.
I lost a friend last week and another friend this morning. I feel sad. I feel scared. They’re not having a service for either one of them (well, one will have an online service). It is heartbreaking.
So sorry to hear that. The world is a scary place right now. 🙁
Please consider Peachtree City, You could get a golf cart and ride the trails. It’s fun, beautiful and will lift your spirits.
Hope you feel better. You need some bug changes in your life. Hopefully, better ones.
I hear you, Sending good thoughts.
I agree with TT that DAVID Muir is informed and has integrity. For reading: I’ve been reading my digest from the NYT because it’s trustworthy.
But recently, I found an EXCELLENT source for a digest. It’s “What the Fuck Just Happened Today?” The blogger carefully vets lots of sources and presents it in a format that is easy to read and research further. Sources are included; he does not just spew this stuff out of his ass. Here is today’s top post:
“ Welcome to Day 1348.
Today in one sentence: Trump paid $750 in federal income taxes in 2016 and 2017, and $0 in federal income taxes in 10 of the last 15 years because his businesses routinely reported losing more money than they made; Trump dismissed the report of his tax avoidance as “totally fake news,” “made up,” and “illegally obtained”; Trump wrote off $26 million in “consulting fees” between 2010 and 2018 by treating a family member as a consultant and then deducting the fee as a cost of doing business; Nancy Pelosi called the report that Trump has more than $300 million in loans coming due in the next four years a “national security question”; CDC Director Robert Redfield warned a colleague that “everything” Trump’s new coronavirus task force adviser “says is false”; and the U.S. Postal Service stopped updating the national change of address system for three weeks in August.
-Matt, current mood: ???
Editor’s note: Apologies for the late edition today! I was completely blindsided by the Trump tax news and it took me for-ev-er to read through everything. What a shit show.”
One of my many sources of anxiety is that I am very late on my quarterly payments to the government WHICH ARE HUGE (at least to me) We had a delay until July I think Then I had to pay all the taxes owed for last year, two quarterly payments of estimated tax… It’s just very much an anxiety trigger. And views are down now that I whine about shit everyday and don’t feel like recapping.. So I am probably over paying. And the Trump shit where he doesn’t pay a dime?
Off to bed I at 530 am work at 7 am. Love to all ( even Andy Cohen Nene Leakes Brandi Glanville & the rest of the miscreants on my television ) what the world needs now is love sweet love. It’s the only thing that there’s just to little of.
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Marc
I am going to need you to sleep more. It’s the only way to get through all this.
Omg I set the table for breakfast every night after dinner. We really are separated at birth twins p.s I don’t eat breakfast & neither does he but it is something my Maum & Nana did so I am just keeping up the tradition alive !
Yeah, I stopped doing that a few years back and just started doing it at TJ Maxx. LOL. My mama was really big on dishes and I need to have a yard sale for dishes alone. I have very kind you can imagine from steak plates to fine china. It’s sort of a thing. I need to unburden myself of things (like soup tureens ) that I thought I might need if I got married. Which obviously I am not.
I have become obsessed with “how do I make things better”. TMI, was raised by a single mother in low cost housing in the 70s-80s. To realize that my mom could be refused for a loan without a mans signature? WTF. To find out that, states may be different, here if you are charged and either found innocent or the charges dropped, they stay on your record….WTF. We had to recite the preamble to the constitution in middle school….thank you schoolhouse Rock. While the majority of us were not included in “we the people”,…folks like MLK and RBG fought to give us a FULL seat at the table. We need to honor those that came before us and learn the rules of the game and then change who wins. DAs are elected officials….that means WE decide who is charged. Want more money for your kids classroom, vote for the county commissioner, city officials and school board members that share your views. Vote not only when president is on the ballot…vote EVERY election. I blame myself for Trump being the Republican nominee because I didn’t vote in the primaries that year. “We the People” can make the world better!
Yes, Tamara, I know you do not like parrots, but, still you might be amused by this CNN sooty about four African Grays (like Monique’s T’Challa who were removed from their wildlife enclosure for SWEARING.
The four birds came from SEPARATE places during the same week and suddenly started swearing at each other and people.
“Fat twat” is what they call one worker— they didn’t say if she were fat,
“Fuck off” is the most common one.
They separated them thinking they will forget in a couple of months. They might be experts, but I know from experience THEY WILL NOT FORGET. They will just be a bad influence on the others! Bwahahaha!
Read in CNN: https://apple.news/AukbGPodkQw6ycOIiKDP2tQ
lol