I was so excited this morning when I realized that there was no RHOA or any other Bravo shows tonight. It was like getting a snow day! I have been doing lots of manual labor the last few days deep cleaning my living room. Step one was finding my living room. I’ve been struggling a lot with anxiety and depression lately. My go to anxiety fix has been alcohol way too much lately. It helps in the moment but make the next day even worse. So it’s easy to just go too many days in a row drinking wine. Then, I found a better option. I’ve been taking CBD gummies and they have really helped. After about three days, I haven’t even had to take them anymore. They are kind of like having Xanax in your purse. Just knowing they are there is good enough.
Clean All The Things!
So step two in the sanity plan was cleaning up this house. I’ve focused on the living room where I have been scrubbing walls and mopping floors and painting my coffee table trunk, and cleaning the ceiling fan (ew) and scrubbing baseboards and cleaning windows clean and changing the air filters and … it’s been a lot. The reward was permission to trash the ugly grey carpet I bought last summer and getting a new upbeat one (just like the one I had before). I did that about an hour ago. I am too tired to roll it out and put the furniture back in place. So that will have to wait until tomorrow.
Just before I left to get the rug (and drop off 40 pounds of laundry at the fluff and fold) I heard the sad news about Kobe Bryant. Please use this link to comment on that. I’m not sure if it was the physical exhaustion, but that hit me harder than I would have thought. I overshare (as usual) to say that my plans for the night have changed.
I Need A Nap!
I was looking forward to watching the season finales for both The L Word: Generation Q and Work In Progress on Showtime. They are two of my favorite shows and I am going to save them until I am less exhausted. I don’t usually watch The Grammys, but I have adjusted my DVR so that I can watch tonight. I am quite sure I will fall asleep in the first hour. But, I bought snacks while I was out so I a going to pile up on the couch and learn about what kids today are listening to and eat things I won’t be able to eat in the near future. Pssst I am getting ready to start Lentil Season 2020 early, so cheat now before we get serious again, ladies and gents!
So, what are your plans for tonight? Feel free to discuss The Grammy’s in comments here if you like. Or use this as an open forum for whatever your plans are. Now, if you will excuse me, I’ve sort of thrown my back out, and my right ankle is swollen. I am going to lay my bones down. I’ll still be online for as long as I can stay awake!
Luann doesn’t know the difference between special ed and physical education? Apparently she was doing one of those paid fan video things. I think they should get a refund.
Lucky you! I’m still working. I had an event to cover all weekend, and I’m adding some finishing touches to my final report.
Once I’m done with work, I’ll probably binge on some goofy podcasts before I turn in for the night.
I need more marijuana in my life. CBD has helped, though I might eventually have to splurge on the fun stuff. I’m glad you’re enjoying your CBD stash!
There’s lots of good stuff on tonight: The Circus and Our Cartoon President on Showtime. Howard’s End, Sanditon and Vienna Blood on PBS. And The Outsider on HBO. Also there is 2 hours of 90 Day Fiancé on TLC. Plus the Grammy’s. My DVR runneth over. I hope you feel better soon. ❤️
90 Day Fiance is my Sunday night go to, followed by Sister Wives. Mindless entertainment.
I taped the second airing of both of those. Sister Wives is one of my Saturday shows.
OMG… forgot about Sister Wives. Might be the escape I need. Team Meri.
I watched Sister Wives. It irritates me like Bravo does. Lol I don’t know why I am such a glutton for punishment. These crap shows are horrible for my BP. Cody is irritating AF and watching these women vie for his attention and talk about his hair just dumbfounds me.
Oh, then you must watch Circle on Netflix!
Im just in disbelief over Kobe Bryant’s death. He and his daughter were so young. Absolute tragedy.
Oops, I see you already posted about it. Feel free to remove my previous comment and I’ll post on the other post.
Wow. I have never heard Lizzo sing before. She can SANG! (I know, I know, y’all know I don’t usually listen to music).
OMG! Total Lizzo Fan now.
Welcome to the club, TT! Binging on “‘Cuz I Love You” always helps me feel better. And when I need more, I can always grab some “Coconut Oil”.
Not only can she sing but she plays the flute and I really like the fact that she’s not a skinny mini.
she’s really talented and that is all that should matter.
her dancers were all different sizes and that’s the way it should be
I’ve been on YouTube binge watching old episodes of All My Children and One Life to Live. And by old I mean ’80s and ’90s old, when they were at the top of their game. It’s been a great and fun trip down memory lane.
Wait, are all episodes out there? I was an all-ABC soap junkie from to early 80s to the late nineties. I would love to go back and watch the Luke and Laura days on GH and the Jesse/Angie/Jenny/Greg on AMC.
I don’t think every single episode is out there. To be honest, I came across it by accident while looking at random clips and there are a few playlists divided into categories of years/years spans. If you search hard enough I’m sure you could find mostly what you’re looking for though.
I just LOVES me some Beau Buchanan and some Nathan Fillion Joey!
I was always a Clint Buchanan kinda girl 😽😻😽
I will be checking YouTube soon, thanks for the info!
OLTL is my all time fave! I like when the characters (like Nora Buchanan) still show up once in awhile on General Hospital
I wish Beau and Nora would both move to Port Charles. Jordan is a shitty chief. The DA is and idiot. Port Charles needs them. And then Snoop may guest too!
I have very recently discovered audio books that I can download. I am having the most recent book by one of my favorite authors read to me. I am trying to dig myself out of the disaster my house is due to a lot of crap that I had no control over. I get worn out easily, and overwhelmed by the enormity of the task. So, I am working on getting my ass in gear on a regular schedule (around working to pay for said pig sty house.) Otherwise things are going really so much better than in a long time, and I am trying to trust it. That’s about it for me tonight. Award shows are not my thing.
No really my thing either. But I am enjoying this one even though I am not much of a music person either. It just seems like everyone who is feeling down tonight is watching it together. And all of the people there are getting through it together.
Clearly I have been missing out on a lot of new music since like… you know… the 90s when I used to listen…
Try listening to Jimmy Buffett—you cant be sad when you listen to him 😻
Tamara do you mind sharing what brand your gummies are? I would really like to try them bc I have out of control anxiety and since I am a recovering addict I can’t be prescribed any benzodiazepine. I want to order some but there are so many options that trying to pick one gives me anxiety. Sorry if you already gave this info and I missed it.
This is what I ended up getting. This is the direct site. I used a link someone posted here and paid more. I got the 300 mg ones,
https://www.cbdmd.com/catalog/product/view/id/114/s/cbd-gummie/category/2/?size=30-count&strength=300mg
I also go the dog treats 150 mg and they have been helpful for Banjo and hopefully will help during fireworks.
Thank you so so so much!
Has it been helpful to you TT, even without the THC? I have some of the CBD drops and they don’t really do much for me. I’ve read you have to keep taking it daily and allow it to build up in your body to be effective, but I really just want to find something I can take when my anxiety is feeling particularly bad that will help.
It helps me a lot. The benefit to me may just be that I have an option other than alcohol when I am having a panic attack. They gummies work for me. I don’t take them every day. I haven’t had one in a couple of days because I don’t have as many panic attacks when I don’t drink. Since I have an option other than drinking, that reduces my anxiety. So it’s probably not all the CBD but the lack of alcohol (which helps in the moment of the attack but causes anxiety later). Does that make sense?
I too one recently for depression and it helped a little bit. But I am not trying to build up anything. The gummies work just fine for anxiety with no build up for me. My gummies are 300mg and the first time I took it I took one and then waited a couple hours and took the second one. I guess you will just have to try and see. For me not having to rely on alcohol is probably the biggest benefit.
I ordered the gummies I cannot wait to try them. So excited to have some relief.
I listen to audio books, it is a great way to read (listen) to a book while doing other things. Amazon wants you to subscribe to audio books for $14.99 but they have a far better deal than that on Kindle Unlimited for $9.99 a month. Kindle Unlimited has 50,000+ Kindle books that also have audible narration. You can switch between listening on your phone, in your car, on Alexa and then to reading the book. I run through several audio books a month. Okay Amazon says 88 last year, gee whiz who is counting. I can drive, paint, clean or do whatever while listening to an audio book.
I stayed home today because I was under the weather (coff coff), I have been doing housework and writing reports for work, and put off watching a seminar I have been meaning to watch. I have a new 9 week old black kitten named Cooper Salem, and he is currently on my shoulder nursing on my earlobe. This is his thing, he does it to the whole family. It is weird but cute. I try to turn my head but his little milk teeth are clamped on like a lizard. I am also watching Cheer on netflix, the show we never knew we needed.
I want pictures of your kitten!!! Have fun with Cheers, it’s one of the best sitcoms ever made.
lol not Cheers, Cheer! though i agree with you about the sitcom, Cheer is a netflix doc about cheerleading. surprising how you get attached to the cheerleaders though I dont know if they cheer for an actual team, just competitively, I guess. I would send a picture if we could,
Binge watching “Killing Eve.” Love Sandra Oh and Jodie Cormier. Love the series. I’m on about 9 straight hours now.
I did this about two weeks ago. I had to FORCE myself to take a break to get some sleep! AMAZING SHOW, I owe it all to this site that I watched at all 🥰
I saw a Tamara recommendation for the show myself. Starting watching and havent stopped. Cant wait for Season 3.
Killing Eve is the best!!
Where do you watch it? I have searched and searched and I can’t find it! I would like to start at season 1
It’s on HULU.
happily watching, again, breaking bad, the marathon.
I saved up the last two Shameless and the season finale is on tonight so between checking on crash updates I will be watching Shameless.
Nothing exciting here, just camping out at home in the midst of the never-ending whole house renovation. Sitting at my laptop in the 1/3 finished kitchen with no sink/running water/counters. Have a toilet in the master bath, but no shower or sink. Meals & hygiene involve planning & many extra steps. Piles of odd stuff, construction materials & belongings are everywhere, with narrow walkways between. My nostrils have been bloody scabs for the past 2 weeks from the sawdust & fumes. I keep telling myself that, like childbirth, it has to end sometime, & the results will be worth it. Our bed is the only refuge, so retiring early has been the preferred option, & not without benefits.
I’ve subscribed to a podcast which assigns three classic movies to watch each week. I watched one tonight. I’ve never been into classic movies so it’s been both educational and entertaining so far. The weekly podcast is really funny and I’m learning a lot about old Hollywood.
What is the name of the podcast, please? It sounds interesting.
Hi Nanette, it’s called Day Drinking Podcast.
The same people also do a weekly Bravo podcast, and in the summer they do a weekly in depth Big Brother podcast (which is how I found them originally). You can find their account on Facebook, IG, or Twitter.
Thanks. I will check it out.
90 Day Fiance 😊
I just ordered a $60 hepa mask for the coronavirus stuff. It’s getting worse. We are up for five cases in the US and they are now saying it can be spread person to person and can be transmitted before the infected person knows they are sick
Wash your hands often, my friends.
One of the infected people is at the hospital where my daughter was born.
I had day surgery there and it’s a great hospital.
But I am surprised that she’s not in a downtown Chicago hospital like Northwestern.
I thought I read that certain hospitals have been setup to deal with any possible infections. Maybe she’s at one of those.
TT, I must ask. You got one hell of a lot accomplished this morning. Is that the CBD gummies working? From what I can tell you and I have similar depression – don’t get regular sleep, tend to be night owls, not overly excited to have to leave the house, terrible eating patterns/habits, etc. I got CBD tea but it tasted like shit (sadly I own stock in this company) so I am wondering if edibles might be better.
I have paperwork from my doc to sign up for medical Marijuana but I want to hear from more people first. Preferably ones who were never into it, like myself, because you got hungry/paranoid/sleepy.
Please tell me about your experiences.
I chose CBD from someone’s recommendation here. I have forgotten the company already which will be problematic when I need to reorder. There is not THC in the gummys. I was still afraid to try them even after they arrived.
As y’all know I had been treating my anxiety with alcohol which is not the best idea because the next day it is worse. However, when you are terrified of everything, you have to do what you can.
When I got the gummies, I had an alternative to drinking. The gummies worked on the anxiety. I had to take a good bit at first but haven’t taken any for several days now. It is comforting knowing they are there and they work.
Once the anxiety goes away, the depression is uncovered. I haven’t really tried the gummies for that yet. I’ve been doing pretty good the past few days. The gummies I got were bigger than I expected. Maybe three quarters of an inch cubes. So I usually take a half and wait half an hour and take the other half if I want. On the first day, I was having a full blown panic attack and too two gummies that day. It’s been about a week and a half now. Not drinking is immensely helpful. I have been waking up between 5 and 8 am and making coffee. I am not a regular coffee drinker, but that has given me a kick start to be able to face the cleaning tasks. I also try to eat a banana or I buy one of those tiny cans with four itty bitty croissants inside and stick a pat of cheese in the middle and eat that. Then I am more likely to eat something later in the day.
I’ve also been seeing a therapist for the past two weeks. I feel like the main benefit of that for me is that I have to shower and put on decent clothes and brush my hair at least once a week. Plus, I feel like I am supposed to be improving so we sort of set goals for what I want to accomplish for the week. She’s more of an accountability coach than anything. You guys are my talk therapists, whether you want to be or not.
This is working so far for me. The coffee is very important. I hope this helps. I was WAY in the hole if I can start crawling out, anyone can. You have to WANT to do things to get out. And that is hardest part. It’s easy to just stop giving a fuck. So, try to give a fuck. You deserve to be happy, It just takes a little work. xo ~tt
glad to hear you are working on a program for this, it is so important to work on mental health, I know! Harder work than people realize, and it never ends, but you sound (or should I say “read”) SO much better!
Ha! Working a program makes it sound like I’ve quit drinking and am sitting around talking about it in a group setting somewhere. I am just taking better care of myself and preparing for LENTIL SEASON…. where I guess we do kind of sit around and talk about not drinking or eating anything fun and how we hate to exercise. 🙂 I guess I am running “a program” again soon.I still have twenty of the pounds I lost last season off. I hope to lose 30 this season.
You have to share the cbd gummy brand (once you remember). I need the gummy’s and don’t know what brands are good.
I need them too. I’m all fucked up! lol I’m having such bad anxiety and pain and would like a gummy bear or two.
Yay! Tamara finally tried CBD! I took a long time before I tried it because my pain was so bad and I was so sick and tired of trying shit that didn’t work. Then … my dog needed some. After I saw her improvement, I got myself some NuLeaf sublingual drops (GP and anxiety) and Tattoo Lovers Care for fibro pain (I have no tattoos, the health food lady said best for fibro). I usually would test on myself, but money is a big issue and my dog comes first. Now it may be Banjo’s turn. I recommend Tuscan Naturals oil. Human grade product with very clear dosage instructions; more exact than the human oil.
I HATE HATE HATE pot. CBD is from the hemp plant, pot is from marijuana plant. They are related, but not the same. CBD is nit psychotropic. If you pee test for drugs get the BROAD spectrum, NOT the FULL spectrum CBD.
My pain doc and my psychiatrist both work with veterans and say CBD shows more promise for treating PTSD than any other med — by MILES.
I want to try the CBD flights next. They are $20 for three of various strengths. I checked out the CBD specs from Mike S. from Shahs. It sounds good. I will buy from him but NOT from Tamra Judge, even if hers was the best.
I bought CBD treats for Banjo for fireworks and such. Banjo has some weird thing he does like his ears are itchy or something. I used to treat it with prednisone but he can’t get meds from the vet anymore unless he goes in for a visit which will not be happening.
So I gave him one of the very thin little crackers. Dosage for a small dog. Fixed him right up in less than ten minutes.
I’m a believer.
Did Banjo ever need/have success on gabopentin? (probably spelled wrong). Somewhere I have a pretty full bottle of it prescribed to my Simon. Kept meaning to drop it off at the vet or some charity, but didn’t have the heart to go through his stuff even though it has been since September. If it is something you could use for Banjo, I’d HAPPILY look for it for him with no trauma for me (“knowing” who it would be useful for makes all the difference). Glad the CBD is working for him, but in the off chance if you also need gabopentin, I needed to mention it. Let me know and we’ll take it to email if you do need it.
Nah we have never used that before. We are both officially fucking snowflake democrats to take CBD. WHAT THE HELL HAS HAPPENED TO US?
Have you tried Benzedrine for the itching? One of mine needs to take it periodically. I HATE prednisone. I bet Banjo would hate to get the telltale moonface!
Tonight I inadvertently tuned into AARP’s awards show on PBS that had aired last night. It was an awards show that was awarding “Movies For Grownups”. OMG! All these beautiful 50+ stars unabashedly flaunting their beautiful selves, wrinkles, extra pounds, and all. Reveling in being older and wiser. So powerful. So illuminating. Jamie Lee Curtis, Dianne Ladd, Annette Benning, too name a few. Stunningly beautiful women who have not had extensive plastic surgery. It was so validating!
Then I made the tragic mistake of tuning into CNN to catch up on the impeachment trial. Le sigh. Exploded my good mood. Sometimes, I am my own worst enemy.
My Sunday consisted of four things: morning church service, 3-hour nap (with drooling), P.D. James mystery books, and Great Value (Walmart brand) sea salt caramel ice cream with crunchy little truffle bits inside.
The ice cream was an accident, truly. I placed a pick-up order at Walmart, and instead of Drano I got ice cream. (TIP: Don’t allow substitutions. Or maybe do.)
Thank you for the ice cream tip! Sounds yummy. But why would they make that substitution for something so different? Was it just a mistake or do they find a random item that costs the exact same thing? I genuinely want to know.
I’m sure it was just a mistake and they gave me somebody else’s bag. They were really disorganized yesterday.
I feel bad for whoever was expecting ice cream and got my Drano instead!
I LOVE the sea salt caramel Great Value ice cream. Our Walmart had been out of it for months. They finally got it back in stock. It really is delicious!
It’s addictive! I’m having trouble staying out of the freezer…
They make that in ice cream sandwiches flavor too. Really good!
My younger daughter spent the weekend and I drove her back to school this evening. It was a really nice visit. I caught the second half of the Grammys. I felt repulsed when I saw Sharon Osborn drag Ozzie up on stage. Jesus the man has severe Parkinson’s but she’s determined to try and keep him visible and relevant even if it literally kills him.
I was turned off by Sharon a few weeks ago on her show The Talk when she was talking about LVP. They are “good friends” and she was saying how wonderful she is and she does soooooo much charity work. She was implying she was mistreated on the housewives and I wanted to puke all over my TV.
I am not much of a music person either but I thought I would watch and see if my mood would lift. Also, I really like the song “Bad guy” that won everything. I thought Alicia Keyes did a good job and she was so kind with her tributes. I’m glad I watched it.
I’ve been exploring religions for a moment now, I didn’t know Catholics are Christians! I thought they were their own thing,& I didn’t know Jews don’t believe in JC, anyway my agnostic or atheist dad was just placed on hospice, and a Chaplin will visit him. He didn’t say no to that, so maybe he’s open to something? Anyway my parents baptized my older sister but not me, so yeah I’m thinking of doing that. With my parents illness I feel like I’m supposed to go thru this when I’m 55. But some advice I wish I had, if ur parents trust you, go to bank (yes all of u) and get ur name added. Or if u have POA take that and your parent to the bank and add that so you can write checks. And when you sign your name on their check you can just write next to it POA & they’ll look it up.
Oh also if ur parents have investment accounts, like Schwabb (sp?) u also have to tell them u have POA.
Basically if ur parent is able to, do it now, bc when they aren’t able it becomes a problem, just more questions more forms etc.
Jeez I just remembered this from my sister, she said yes we have power of attorney, but “they” don’t know that. They meaning the bank, investments. My dads bedridden so I’m curious how they’ll handle that. I just wish before all this we just added our names to his account when he could accompany us.
I know I’m scrambled right now, ugh super sad, but if anyone had a question, well u know I’ll give my best answer
So sorry to hear about your parents. It is always a difficult time.
If your dad is agnostic, he will probably welcome the Chaplin. If he is atheist, he will probably not care for it.
I’m sort of agnostic. A lot of things don’t line up for me with many religions. So I generally think dead is dead.
HOWEVER. I’ve read the whole Bible and the New Testament more than once. And The accuracy of the book of revelation in relation to what is happening now, including religious wars in the middle east, fires, earthquakes and the like… That would be one hell of a coincidence. So I’m doing a bit more praying than usual, 🙂 Agnostics basically don’t know what to think. Atheist are sure that God does not exist, I like churches and awful lot and find great comfort sitting in them. I spend a LOT of time in churches when I go to Paris. I’ll spend at least an hour a day just sitting in a church every day. Sometimes more like all day especially if I luck into one with an organist practicing on the pipe organ.
I know. I’m weird. But it;’s always okay to explore religions. I was raised near a mosque and the Islamic call to prayer is one of the most beautiful sounds in the world to me. One of my favorite songs is by Counting Crows called Mr Jones has a line that says, “I want to be someone who believes,,, ” The song is not about religion really…. but…
Hang in there, girlfriend. We are all going to need to put on our big girl panties it seems. I’m trying to get up off my fat ass and take on the challenges and find ways to grab moments of happiness where I can.
xo
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Just FYI.. Counting Crows / Adam Duritz have been my fav forever. I think he is one of the best lyricists ever. Anna Begins. “You try to tell yourself the things you try to tell yourself.. To make yourself forget.” #heartClutch
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I am sorry about your parents. You can have a mobile notary come out and witness the papers. DO BE SURE to get check-writing privileges. A POA will not be sufficient. Also, there are medical and financial POAs and banks have weird rules. Get everything in a trust to avoid probate if you can. It is hard enough to deal with this shit without the paperwork clusterfuck.
And we ALL should have an advance directive. Family feuds have started for less. (Especially when your brother is married to the Evil Succubus hypocrite killer who has the Christian fish plastered all over everything.)
Note that a POA is only valid while the person granting it is alive; it immediately ends upon death.
Oh jeez, really
Sorry I appreciate the advice
Wow – go you, TT! Congratulations on getting all that done! So glad you are feeling better!
I am watching 90 Day Fiance, Sister Wives, and PILLOW TALK!! I love Pillow Talk! Especially David & Annie, and Loren & Alexei. Annie is hilarious and it’s interesting to see how happy they seem. I don’t remember her being so funny during her season, but I only saw them at the end when there was all the tension with the family about the dowry. Tarik and Dean were funny last season too.
Now I’m off to bed because i get to sleep in an extra half hour tomorrow and as small as that its, right now it feels like it will be amazing. i”m a total night owl and having to get up before 7 every day takes its toll. My son goes to college next year and I’ll miss him like crazy, but the high school start times are brutal and I’ll be so glad to be back on my own schedule. (No disrespect to those who have to get up at 5 for work… you have my admiration!)
Um HEY YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Imm NEED YOU TO HEAD BACK UP TO THE ORIGINAL POST ABOVE. I’ve added a Twitter video of Luann that,,,, well JUST STOP WHAT YOU ARE DOING AND GO LOOK. I’ll wait.
Oh Lu! I really needed that laugh tonight.
Ok THAT made me smile. I needed that. Today ? I made about 15 gallons of minestrone soup. I have no idea what all I put in, but it turned out lovely. I have lots, if you want some. Lol
I always cook when I am stressy. The Kobe thing has been heavy. It seems like a ‘last straw’ event, ya know? & My son played under the OCC coach who was killed along with his wife and daughter. I am afraid to hear the names of the others. I don’t think the fact that I am fighting this fucking flu helps. I prob have coronavirus. Or a brain tumor.
God I am fucking cheery Karen, tonight.
I would come over and make you give me soup if you didn’t live 2000+ miles away. I hope you feel better soon.
I looked, I laughed, I think it was a simple mistake. If she made a mistake like that to my Cameo I would invite my friends over for lots and lots of alcohol so we could drink, watch the video and giggle.
It wasn’t a mistake. She said it twice and went into detail. Of course she could be drunk. Or she is going through THE CRAZY. Or she is just dumb. 🙂
My first thought was that Lu was drunk.
It’s Luann in 3-D
She’s Drunk, Dumb And Delusional!!
Or Drunk, Dumb, and going through the crazy! She kinda looked a little pasty too. Made me laugh.
Basically I thought if u have POA over ur parents ur good, but no. So you have POA but nobody (meaning banks, investments) knows that. Tell them! And try to tell them b4 ur parent can’t communicate.
Life….jeez it suks
Liz, does your parents have a beneficiary or executor? I’m sorry you are stressing with this. Is there a will? Try and be calm, this is a very stressful time and it will all work out. Find out these things that I asked you.
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Eric and I do the same thing EVERY Sunday without fail: we go to a live jazz show. They’re a dying breed, but it really is the most enjoyable form of music entertainment that encompasses such a diverse crowd. From young to old. It’s amazing.
Now, I’m just working on content creation stuffs!!
i got up super early since it was supposed to be a nice, beautiful sunny day in palm springs… i had brunch with my friend – had a wonderful avocado toast with cherry tomatoes and arugula sprinkled with some sea salt and lemon on a good quality whole wheat country bread, and a side of good black coffee omg yum! Tamara kudos to you for getting a lot done even if you had to probably force yourself, at least you tried. i have tried CBD gummies but stopped right away because we get randomly tested at work. also, i gave up alcohol cold turkey for over a month now to get healthy and cleanse while i’m on OJI… i do not miss it and i feel great, i sleep better and my skin looks fresh.
i hope you feel better and cleaning your home is an instant gratification so don’t be so hard on yourself, you did well!!!
at the moment, i am having a mango flavor la croix by the heated pool and being thankful for life… it is too short. trying to live my best life each day, it ends too soon
Positive for CBD is not a dirty. I test every few months. If you get full spectrum CBD, it may contain trace THC, but usually not enough to throw a test. If you get broad spectrum, there is no THC. Get the Isolate if you are still unsure. Where you buy it, there should be a person to advise you about this.
thanks i meant THC because i have trouble sleeping. i was told THC stays in your system for at least 4 weeks
CBD helps with sleep. I’ve had sleep disorders since infancy. It doesn’t leave you felling lethargic the next day either.
thank you nanette, does it show on a drug test? my job gives many random drug tests and i’d rather take zanax if it’ll show
It is 11:16 PM my time. some of you know that I’m agnostic, but have people who have adopted me into their family that are Jewish. Today was a shit show for modern reasons, but right now, I am bawling my face off because it is the 75th anniversary of the liberation of Auschwitz. If you follow various social media accounts, especially the Auschwitz Memorial account, you know that at this moment there are survivors crossing the threshold of those famous gates.
At a 75th year anniversary, any survivor able to walk across that gate would have been a child survivor. Please hold them in your hearts today, no matter what your current political beliefs are. These are brave, bad ass trauma survivors facing and remembering the deaths of their loved ones. Looking at where they were murdered.
I normally do not discuss religion however I believe that this 75th Year Anniversary is very important especially in 2020 and what is occurrring in the world.
When I was around 13 my father made my brothers and I watch ( I think it was called World at War ) and the episodes related to Auschwitz remain with me till this day.
It is sad that in 2020 persecution due to religion is still so active.
Thanks Erica for the reminder highly appreciated.
After going to Auschwitz, I don’t see how ONE SINGLE PERSON of any age lived more than a week in there. Our guide had been a young prisoner. That made it even more poignant, he had some stories. The museum is done so well. The giant room-sized display cases of eyeglasses, shoes, dentures, artificial limbs, hair are overwhelming. Then you find out that is only ONE DAY of artifacts. Much more visceral than sheets of numbers. I held it together until I saw a case with a single child’s red shoe. Somehow, the lonely shoe hit me. It’s hard to imagine the horror.
I don’t know if I have the guts to go there. The Holocaust museum was difficult. I went in 2016, a couple of years after my best friend’s son was Bar MItzvahed. What I hat to stop and stare at, what I couldn’t get out of my head for a while, were desecrated Torahs from Kristallnacht. Some people rescued them (I think some were even in the streets). All I could think of was the rituals and reverence surrounding the opening of the Ark.and the taking out of the Torah Scrolls, etc. at that Bar Mitzvah.
So hard to imagine. I read about the horrors at Bergen yesterday. This was the camp where Anne Frank and her sister died. I honestly don’t know if I would have survived the ride on the trains TO the camps.
I drank wine and re-watched the OC reunion (yes-1-3).
Mourning Tres Amigas…Sue me!
Trying to find the Billie Elish Grammy performance online, but it’s impossible.
Love her album and it’s dive into depression and angst.
Anyway.. Happy No Nene Night!
Sunday at our house is always 90 Day Finance and we record PillowTalk to watch on Monday. I am one of those people that have never watched even five minutes of any of the Housewives shows. Just the very name insulted me – housewives? Like they cook and clean and are anywhere normal? I have a lot of names I could use when describing that gaggle of women and housewives isn’t one of them.
I did tequila shots while I deep cleaned my house. My king sized crushed velvet duvet cover weighs fifty pounds and takes all day to wash and dry.
Made a vegan shepherds pie and watched movies after the his got home with more tequila.
I love tequila.
I love Hyperbole and a Half, the Bloggess rocks too.
Just found out that a semi-work thing that I have to go to is THE DAY OF THE OSCARS. A FUCKING SACRILEGE!
What is worse, is I always see it at my folks (they are going to this thing too), and they DON’T HAVE A DVR.
I am going to sign up for YouTubeTV trial run, since they have a DVR function so we can start watching as soon as we get to their house. I’m GOING TO MISS THE FUCKING RED CARPET THOUGH.
I’m kind of upset. But the person inviting us has been super good to us, so I can’t really avoid it.
I’ll still do the blog ahead of time for TT, so you’ll have a place to chat. Hopefully the first half hour will have lots of commercials so I can catch up. Plus, I’m sure there will be a few acceptance speeches I can fast forward through.
Side note – anyone else trying to see the nominees for BP (and the shorts… don’t forget the shorts! Should be out this weekend). I’ve seen 1917, LIttle Women, The Irishman, and JoJo Rabbit. 1917 was VERY well made. I think ultimately Jojo Rabbit is my favorite so far. I think 1917 will probably get it based on how they vote 1st, 2nd, 3rd, etc.
The LuAnn thing is too much. When I followed the TT link, I saw a commenter had put Special Ed with a clip of Mister Ed. I love him so much.
This reminds me of the third date with my last boyfriend. He and his friend Bob were stars at the Art Institute in SF years before. We had to drop off some of their photos for an alumni show and went to a nearby bar filled with pretentious art students. His friend asked a girl what she did “I make experimental films,” she said with that special artsy air of disdain. “Oh, I like spearmint…” he deadpanned. I will never forget her face. Trying to figure out whether he were clueless or special.
Alcohol, it really is the cause and cure to all of life’s problems. I heard that from a simpsons episode.
Also, has anyone seen the movie Terms of Endearment, there’s a scene that Shirley MacLaine dials in on, she’s upset bc her dying hospital bound daughter is supposed to receive medicine at 6 o’clock, and it”s 6:01 and she freaks out to the staff. I’m not the person she is and I hope I don’t have to do that, but I admire her in that situation.