I had planned to write in this week’s open forum about how great things are going on the fighting depression and anxiety front this week. And they have gone very well for me. However today I am having a setback. I stopped doing all the right things last night. I stayed up until around 4 or so hoping to find out WTF was going on with Big Brother and why the live feeds went down for hours and there was no #BBAD. See comments in link above for the latest updates. Around Wednesday, I decided to open my Fat Tuesday champagne, mostly because I haven’t been grocery shopping and was out of literally everything to drink in this house. So I didn’t eat properly, I drank champagne, I am out of electrolyte water and I fucked up my sleep schedule. Any one of those things can put me back in the hole. All four have me a bit sidetracked today.
Saturday is generally a day I try to take off as much as possible to do things around the house. It’s been a dreary day. I stayed in bed until three watching TV until the anxiety of not knowing what was going on with the site was too much to bear. It’s been overcast and wet all day. A fall in the barometric pressure always has an effect on me, so I’m just a bit sad for no reason and have a case of the blahs and a touch of anxiety and self-criticism for not doing any of the things I’d planned to do today.
So anyway. I did want to encourage you all to do something positive for lent this year. It begins on February 14th this years and lasts for 43 days. I’m not Catholic and my mother used to get pissed if I acknowledged doing something for Lent, but it’s just a good chunk of time to make a positive change. I usually give up sugar and alcohol. You can lose a good 15 pounds just doing that for lent! This year I plan to do alcohol and just “cut back” on sugar. I’m also trying to give up slothfulness. And keep on purging and cleaning the house. My new maids did not come this week. They wanted to come today instead of yesterday and I told them to just come on next Friday. I was not about to start giving them the opportunity to come whenever they feel like it. Did I mention I still have a TV in my side yard? Le sigh.
All in all I probably did need a day of rest today. My right ankle is not really able to hold up my excessive weight for hours of shopping. I went out yesterday to buy new sheets and other necessities and for the third time this week my right ankle swelled up like a cantaloupe. I’ve sprained both ankles dozens and dozens of times beginning in middle school. They are both a mess. Also, I’m having back problems when I go out shopping. I’ve never had a back problem before. I think my skeleton is just pissed about the weight gain.
Anyway, think about the Lent thing if you want to participate this year. And tell me what is going on with you in comments below. Anyone have any good news? Anything going on in the world you want to talk about? It’s open season in comments. Let’s chat! Oh and some of us talk in these comments all week until the next one comes up. To get to the latest Open Forum, just click Open Forum on the black bar above.