I get a lot of advice from you guys. ALOT. And it is only fair I suppose because I have a lot of opinions on a lot of things. I’ve been told to check this and that from a gene mutation to the garden variety old lady stuff. I know you all mean well and I am flattered that you care. In addition to my malfunctioning brain, I have some health issues and one in particular that requires surgery I have been putting of for a long time. In the past couple of days it has become more urgent. It’s a minor thing when it is happening to someone else but I’ve never had surgery at all.
Who knows how many years ago,(Because, Lymeopause) I walked off the front porch of a neighbor’s house. I was expecting stairs where there were no stairs. Yes there was drinking involved. A neighbor kid’s friend had offered to walk Banjo. I had just been rescued by him and read all the books on raising a dog and I as feeling bad because the dog whisperer guy said that he needed an hour of exercise beyond running around in the back yard. I was pretty wasted and the adult neighbors at the time may or may not have been out of town. I would tell you more, but I was insured at the time and kept getting letters from my insurance company wanting to blame someone else. So I’ll stop that story here to say that, I kinda broke my face. or at least my nose. And for a bit I thought I was going to get a nose job from my insurance out of it. I realized, sober that I didn’t really want a new nose. Mostly because my nose didn’t change at all. It’s my nose, it looks just the same and even though it would be covered, I didn’t want another nose on my face. It healed just fine. I don’t want to look like someone else. And I don’t want any unnecessary surgery. And I am terrified of general anesthesia.
At any rate, something I have been needing surgery for has become a lot worse in the past couple days. It’s painful. It is no longer something I can push off. I knew it was going down hill when I asked to go to a friend’s cabin a couple of months ago and then decided I could not be that far from medical care.
Let this be a cautionary tale. My friend TOLD ME, don’t put off medical care. I sort of thought I could handle it whenever. I don’t have a primary doctor and his morning I tried to get in with a surgeon who I trust, but have never had any contact with. I’m hoping I can get her and get in next week.
I am a bit stressed and having a bit of pain. I know it is a simple procedure, but I’m just nervous. I’ve never had surgery before and it’s kinda scary.
I’m avoiding telling you what it is because last time I did, I got a lot of dramatic advice that just scared me off of doing anything. At this point, I just hope something happens next week. All it takes is some discomfort to push me to do it I’ve waited until things got worse. Things are worse.
So I just want you to know. The plan I have is to have surgery sometime next week. In the meantime, I’m feeling a bit uncomfortable. I called a surgeon today who was in surgery all day. I really like the surgeon and their office has been very supportive. I am HOPEFUL I can get in. Usually a regular doctor refers you to a surgeon. Since my issue happened during THE GREAT DEBACLE OF KAISER PERMANANTE…it’s just a long story,
Anyway, it’s not a big deal, I just eschew meds let along general anesthesia. PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD don’t start with the advice, the stories, the emails, etc. I’m fine and your horror stories about surgery are not helpful. I do not need stories about bad surgeries you have had or people you know have had and information on the specific surgery you think I may be having. Cut me some slack. I’ve picked someone I believe in.
However, things could go south as the situation has escalated. I am sharing this, because I may go missing for a bit but I promise to keep you updated. I feel like it is hard to tell you guys this without being all dramatic. I AM FINE. I am just being a baby about a surgery. And it might even be out patient (or so I tell myself) but either way, I am fine. I just might post less for a few days. That’s all. PLEASE this is not a good time to swap surgery stories. I know I am going to regret this post.
What I would like instead of advice is telling me how you guys are and letting me know what’s new…. The weather dropped today. I finally got my supplementary air conditioning out of the window.
I love fall!