I like to save my Bravo Blogs for the end of the week when other stories start to die down. Especially this weekend when there is not RHOA episode AGAIN. I need something to talk about with you guys then, which is why I don’t care for posts about the blogs the second they come out.
Anyway, Kim seems to have a new ghost writer this week. This one doesn’t even try to write in Kim’s voice. But she is expressing Kim’s message loud and clear and that message is “I DID NOT RELAPSE!” There are heaping helpings of blame to go around. Kim on the other hand excepts zero responsibility. It’s just like the time Kingsley bit Kyle’s kid and Kim blamed the kid.
If you are bored on a Saturday afternoon, give this collection of Kim Richards posts a read. Let me know if you sense a theme.
Any now for the latest episode of Kim Richards On De Nile:
This episode was a roller coaster of emotions for me. Honestly, I had to watch it a few times before I could really process how I feel about it. And the conclusion is I’m perplexed! Did anyone else notice that almost every single scene of this episode involved me in some way? I mean, isn’t it odd that I’m the conversation topic of Eileen and Vince’s romantic dinner out?! And that’s just ONE out of many examples in today’s episode. Even though Lisa V.’s surprise birthday party was such a blast, people were still talking about me. I just don’t get it. It’s getting to a point where I actually feel bad for them—I would hate talking about me all the time. Haha!
Kim, I know you don’t remember this, but you had a very ugly relapse at Eileen’s poker party. You scared the shit out of Lisa Rinna on the way to the party. Embarassed yourself in front of everyone at the party. Scared your sister to death and then treated her like shit. And admitted you are taking pills that were not prescribed to you for mystery pain that you don’t have. This is a big deal affecting everyone around you. Of course you are the topic of conversation. Some people are worried about you.
But in all seriousness, I wish people would just stop trying to intrude in my life and “fix” a problem that doesn’t exist.
It may not exist in your altered reality, but it definitely exists in Kyle’s reality and the reality of everyone else you even mildly cares about you.
Would it break their hearts terribly to know and accept that I am healthy and well? I hate to sound like a broken record, but yes, I made a mistake when I took Monty’s pain pill to relieve the chronic pain from my injuries, and yes, I am still sober and strong mentally and physically.
No, I think everyone wants for you to be healthy and well; however, you are not healthy and well.
However, that one situation did not give anyone the right to spread the rumor that I had relapsed and been drinking. According to the recovery programs, a relapse is when someone preeminently abandons their recovery plan completely by choice.
Which you did, when you either stole or accepted a pill that was not prescribed to you and took it “for the pain.” All addicts are drinking or drugging “for the pain.” When you are sober you have to find other was to deal with it. You seem very focused that drinking is your only problem, when it doesn’t sound like that is your only issue.
I didn’t do that, and these women know I didn’t, because they interacted and had spoken with me many times following the poker night, and they’ll tell you I had been and am fine.
They are not telling us you are fine. They are telling us the opposite of that. Your new BFF is telling us you are on the Fentanyl patch. Your sister is saying that she is seeing all the signs you displayed while using and she is scared. The new girls who barely know you are offering to help you. Yolanda is asking you to let her help you. Vanderpump is saying she has been down this road before and knows better than to get involved. No one. Not one person has said, “Don’t worry about Kim, she’s fine.” Have you watched the show?
Their constant chatter about me honestly feels like they’re belittling all the hard work I’ve put into my recovery for the past three years. Now, this has only become a big deal because they made it a big deal.
Wait, I thought they were going to tell me you were fine? Now they are belittling all your hard work? It’s their fault that you relapsed and they are talking about it?
After the table read at Eileen’s, I shared that I tend to isolate myself and pull away from people during hard times, and that was me recognizing my tendency as a warning sign. Recognizing what I did when I was using is the healthiest part of being a recovering alcoholic, so I can pull myself out of moments of weakness. I am sober and strong today, because I know these warning signs. It’s hurtful and disrespectful that Lisa R. turned my words around and used it against me, saying how I feared reverting back to old habits.
Um do you realize you were on a TV show? There are cameras filming you? People are watching? Because you said that you isolate during hard times. Your kid is having a mental health crisis. Your ex husband is dying. I’m not sure how much harder times could get. It’s understandable that you relapsed. Especially since you have zero support. If you were sober and strong today, you would be apologizing to Lisa Rinna, and everyone else instead of continuing to blame them for your choices.
During Lisa’s surprise party, Yolanda pulled me aside and told me that Lisa R. was talking to different people about me and how I was drinking again/using pills. That’s actually the first time I found out that people were talking about me and relapsing! The whole time I thought they were just worried about how I was coping with Monty’s situation. I am so thankful for Yolanda—I love her so much. I would have never known the truth. What a rude awakening!
There are no words for this. You relapsed. You know you relapsed. Everyone knows you relapsed. And you didn’t know until Yolanda told you? Yolanda is so good at carrying your shit pillow.
Throughout my sobriety, I have shared much of my journey with you all. As part of my recovery program, I work with a great life coach, Gary, who is accessible to me 24/7 as well as a close-knit group of sober friends and family I speak to everyday. My support system isn’t just Brandi and Kyle. I don’t need Kyle to be there for me every single moment of every single day. The reason why these ladies don’t know everything about this integral part of my life is because I don’t shout it out on the rooftops, and I choose to be private about some things (because this is what works for me). Growing up as a child actress and being part of a “reality” show, I understand privacy is not easily defined and exposure comes with the job, but certain parts of my recovery journey is for me only—my health, my mind, and my soul. And I shouldn’t have to justify my actions and decisions to anyone else.
First, fire Gary and find some new sober friends. Second get off of reality TV. Third, why make your relapse public but your recovery private?
Choosing to be silent during some arguments and conflicts is also something I consciously decide to do for my own sake, including the Kyle and Brandi drama. After all these years, you and I both know that there is nothing anyone can do to fix their relationship until THEY decide to mend it. Sometimes, I choose to sit out because I am TIRED of the drama and just want to focus on my life, my family, and my sobriety, which is like a full-time job. I am grateful to be here today, but you never forget the dark once you’ve been there. It’s precisely this feeling of vulnerability that drives me to do better and stay sober every day. Hope this resonates with and helps those going through tough times.
It seems you are only quiet when it comes to defending your sister.