I love Christmas. And as some of you know, I have a team of Christmas Angels. These people have fired my old crappy therapist after my rants. AND HIRED A TEAM OF NEW PEOPLE TO FIX ME. And boy is it working. I am off the crazy pills for now, we will revisit that later if I still need them, and it seems I have been going to an electrician (fiddling with dopamine and serotonin) instead of the plumber (fiddling with hormones) that I needed. If you find yourself going “crazy for no reason” in your forties, maybe your Mama failed to warn you that getting old is not for pussies.
Anyway, this oversharing post is to let you know that my therapist has a total fake it to you make it philosophy. She wants to “retrain my brain”to like shit again. So that is what I am trying to do. I am supposed to be doing what I would be doing if I didn’t find life to be a meaningless pile of horseshit. And my Christmas Angels pay almost $800 a month to give me this advice. For real. So as stupid as it sounds to me, I am thrusting myself into Christmas.
Banjo and I have several 3D opportunities. I will share them all with you after Christmas and let you know how they all went. I am still going to be around, but I will not be so focused on the blog. Lately the negative energy is working against me. Some of y’all seem to really struggle with the holidays. I get that. But taking it out on the housewives isn’t really fair. What you may not know is that many of the people you talk crap about, I have a nice relationship with. And they READ your words.
It’s less than a week until Christmas. I want to enjoy the season. I want to be in front of a fireplace with new friends. I want to wander around the town square, and remember what it is all about. I want to wrap a present. I want to have some girl talk IN REAL LIFE. I want to be…..happy.
So I will be around but in limited fashion. I am so grateful to all of you for reading, and don’t mean to suggest in any way that you can’t bash a housewife here. Of course you can. But I am indebted to those who are paying shit tons of money to get me well.
So if you are up to a challenge. I’d like you all to be kind to each other in my absence. And if you want to see how far this blog has come, check out the archives list on the right. I sort of arrived in a blaze of glory being the first who knew Nene Leakes would be on Glee. When I discover a new blog I like it is fun to read it from the beginning and see how it changed (Plus it would really help my page views as I try to transition into the REAL WORLD). I will be around and blogging a bit. But my REAL WORLD oversharing could be interesting in a week or so.
Merry Christmas!
TT
Merry Christmas! The fake it til u make it approach does work. You can’t enjoy things until you do them and realize they actually are fun and you actually are capable. Instead of withdrawing like a curmudgeon this year like I wanted to, I am inviting my entire family over for a Christmas feast and decorating and singing songs. Of course I kinda have too though, with a little kid counting on me..
SOOOO HAPPY FOR YOUUUU!!!! So glad you have friends who can help you, so happy you found professionals who can help you, so very happy that things are looking up – at least for the moment. And moment by moment are all you can ask for. Have a LOVELY week!!
Awww, I didn’t know you were suffering from depression/hormone imbalance, or whatever it is. I think we all feel that way at one time or another. So glad you are getting help. I’ve donated to the Happy Pill Fund a couple of times, I’ll try to be more consistent with that in the new year, since your blog has always been my favorite!! Merry Christmas and I hope you have a wonderful holiday season! xoxo Susan
Merry Christmas! Glad to hear you are making progress. I’ve been there and it does get better over time.
Chicken, I love me some TT, in the real world or virtual I am Team Tamara! Go enjoy yourself, take Banjo for a walk just because. Go really crazy and sign up for a 5k race early in 2014. Will force you out of the house to train, will give you something to shoot for and best part…people cheer for the person who comes in last more than the first place finisher. Whatever works to help you see the good is great! Have a great Christmas and know yours truly is on your side…as well as my client Banjo’s. 🙂
Wishing you a happy holiday (or perhaps even two!) Tamara. My favorite thing every Christmas is after returning home from my annual Christmas eve gathering at my best friend’s house with her and her kids. It is simply my Christmas eve walk with my dog. There is a church one block away from my house that has the most beautiful bells in town, and on Christmas eve they ring out song after song in all of their glory. As I come right up on the church, with their midnight mass in progress, I can hear the lovely choir singing coming from inside, while also being surrounded by my neighbors houses with all of their beautiful Christmas lights and decorations. Very uplifting, peaceful, grounding, and somewhat humbling. Hoping that you find something similar in your town square (or wherever) this year. Looking forward to the promise of a new year! Happy Holidays to all!
I hope you have a Merry Christmas. I think it is a great idea to find the positive in any situation. The negative energy will bring you down and for some reason there are people that get some type of joy out of seeing people fail or not do well. I hope you find inner peace and joy that no man can take away! I like that your blog provides facts as well as opinion, so people can come to to their own conclusions.
That’s great TT! You are right that blog about Yoland was bad!! Ppl were bashing her so bad I was afraid to make a comment 🙁 they even killed my girl Brandi!! Anywho I’m so happy for you and I’m glad you have the Chirstmas spirit and finally made the desision to be happy and give other ppl a chance to share your life with!! It’s great. I am wishing you the best!! Take a break well needed!! Merry x-mas and happy New year!!
What a nice, uplifting post,TT….and that dog ! This will be my first Christmas without the man who was by my side since I was 16 years old……52 years! I am very fortunate in that I am not, even slightly, a depressive personality type.I get sad but deal with it and move on. I am looking forward to the holiday…it will be different but it will be okay. To all of you other posters…..MERRY, MERRY
CHRISTMAS.
(You will never get me to be nice to Kim aka The Idiot)
TT I’m glad you are doing better. I avoid the housewives blogs but if they get anything like the GZ blogs i can understand how the negitivity will drag you down. Letting me comment when i do has been helping me out of MY hermits shell. Do whatever you have too to enjoy the world.
Wishing you nothing but the best, TT. Bless your angels for doing this. Merry Christmas!
Um……Banjo is the most adorable thing ever! You should make a calendar with pics of him and sell them to us! It can contribute to helping your Christmas Angels. Merry Christmas everyone!
I am so happy that you are going to be more in the real world. From the little I know of you from reading the blog, I think you rock. I’m glad you’re trying to find happiness. Fake it til you make it can work so I hope it does for you.
so glad to see that you are getting back on track, that is great news. Wish you a wonderful Chrismas TT!
merry christmas, dear TT.
Congrats on getting on a better track. I can tell that this approach is affecting you in a positive way already. Don’t embrace the malcontents. Have a wonderful Christmas holiday & hope 2014 brings you all good things.
With your way with words, I have a feeling I’ll like whatever your blog morphs into.
Fake it til yo ump make it is pretty much the same as suck it up, right?
And…put on your big girl panties, handle it. And I think the full saying is “suck it up butter cup”…at least it is here at our house 🙂
Yeah, pretty much. I am already exhausted by all the faking it.
LOL! Ugh.
Sounds like me having sex .
Bummer.
I am so happy your Angels are getting you some help. The right kind and you already sound better! Taking a break from negativity is oh so important! Wishing you a fun Christmas!
Merry Christmas to you too! Fake it ’till you make it – I think that’s a realistic New Year resolution I’m jotting down! And, glad you posted the pup, omg gorgeous – I smiled:))
(ps what’s “3D”?)
This is the best entry! I am praying AND rooting for you Tamara! Merry Christmas!
I’m so happy to read this. Best of luck to you and Happy Holidays!
For an instant pick me up, watch the Halloween and Christmas videos Kim Zolciak Biermann has posted of her son, KJ. Happy holidays!
A very merry Christmas to you, TT, and to all of your readers!
Tamara, I LOVE your holiday boundaries. I say, “Good for you”! and I do not mean that in a negative way. I wish for you a peaceful holiday. And I am so happy for you. I have been through a lot of what you have shared and girl, take great, gentle, loving care of yourself!!
Yes, Virginia there is a Santa Claus! TT I still believe in miracles. Here’s to a healthy mind and body. Just don’t forget on occasion to take a minute to say Hello as we all will miss the dailey banter. With much love and indebtness for your generous time. Success in the future
Merry Christmas Ms. Tamara. Peace and Blessings for the New
Year to you and everyone here.
Quick Question: will you or someone else recap/discuss Dance Moms?
Oh No, TEE CEE, your only friend in the world is going to better herself and leave you, what will you do?
Best of luck to you Tamara, e-mail me if you need anything blog wise.
Good on you TT, sounds like a really positive step to take. I love your blog but am really happy that you are doing so well. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year 🙂
BTW – your dog is gorgeous, bet he’s a good cuddle buddy 🙂
Good luck Tamara. I, too, have to Fake it till you Make it and just remember it isn’t always easy. My default mode is thinking nothing to look forward to and isolation. Battle it a lot! YET- the good news is that eventually you DO make it! Just keep on faking until you get there. Lots of people pulling for you. I found once I got off the antidepressants, I could think much clearer. I hope you find that true as well.