MJ and I follow each other on Twitter and I am a fan. No matter how much I like someone, I rarely agree with every single action they take or every opinion they hold. This is where I find myself with MJ. She has blogged about her disagreement with GG and I am really trying to wrap my head around her point of view. But I’m not being very successful in my efforts.
I struggle to write this week’s blog knowing half the Bravosphere is tweeting me evil comments from last night’s episode. All I can say is that I’ve been through worse, and despite the toils of my friendships, my priority is to stand up and take less shit from people around me. I love my friends, but I can’t take abuse without fighting back for what I believe. Our friendship dynamic is extremely complicated. Our emotions run high when we we’re faced with taking sides against each other. Bottom line: we feel loyal to one another, but being honest with each comes at a cost.
I’m am happy to hear that MJ is going to stand up for herself more this season. Taking less shit from people is a great start. However, that does not mean throwing more shit is the proper methodology.
In the situation where Shawn ogled other girls at the club, I felt insulted by his behavior. Emotionally, I was equally as offended as if it were my man who was eye f—ing other girls, and I felt it to be hurtful and extremely disrespectful. Shawn traveled to Las Vegas and New York a lot and GG was always questioning his loyalty to her. When I said what I said to him, in my mind, at that moment, I was sticking up for her, by taking a dig at him. I thought he deserved it, and that my comment was one-upping his stares. But right after I said that, I saw that it totally backfired, at which point I realized I meddled counter-productively, and I removed myself from the situation.
I can’t comprehend the logic that says ratting out your girl’s secrets to her new man is sticking up for her. I just can’t. But let’s all try to pretend it makes sense, at least to MJ. Because later she admits that she was meddling. And that she fled the scene when she realized her mistake.
When Reza comes over to discuss the other night, it’s obvious that my mischief was a mistake, and as much I meant to make nothing more than a playful stab at Shawn for acting “douche” toward her, she wasn’t laughing with me, and I ended up being the douche. And she took it and ran with it, and accused me of having malicious intent, which I did not at all have. I felt as betrayed by GG, for having my loyalty taken into question so easily. All of a sudden, even though I acknowledged, was honest, fully owned it, and apologized for a momentary lapse of reason, she made a capital case out of it, and it was as though I was never a good friend in all our years of loyalty. Our loyalty which ran both ways. Suddenly, my funds in the bank of GG were depleted to zero. For me, that created something even bigger, it spoke volumes for how much she can f— up and how I was not given the benefit of the doubt.
It was a mistake. Yes. She was a douche yes. But she did not fully own her actions or apologize for them. GG asked her why she did it. She thought it was funny. Even on the previews for next week’s show, GG asks her again if she was sorry for what she did, and MJ says no. We all make mistakes, all we can do is apologize and move on. It’s not so much what MJ did as much as it is her lack of remorse. I still like MJ, I just can’t support mean girl behavior whether it comes from Reza or MJ.
What do you think?