I THINK Stella is getting her groove back? It’s just taking some time. The last year had been a long painful journey for me and coming back to the show and filming scared me. I really did feel like I had been hit by a truck and I was learning to function again. What most people didn’t know I was going through some really painful issues while filming (last year) and I was not allowed to talk about them on camera for legal reasons. My ex-husband put me and the children thorough a painful custody battle that lasted a year. A year of court dates, attorney fees, sleepless nights, scared children, therapy appointments, false media stories, lies, embarrassment, but most of all the worst pain I had ever felt. These are memories that me and my children will never forget. This is pain that has changed each one of my kids in different ways. My two youngest kids are closer to me than ever. My oldest daughter has chosen to go live with her dad and every day without her is painful for me.
The press can be extremely hurtful and most of the time cause unnecessary stress in your life. They called me “monster mom, child abuser, unfit mother.” They said “my husband was leaving me, that I was fired from RHOC.” And none of it was true. The truth is the judge threw out the case without even hearing my testimony. There was NO evidence, NO witnesses and NO truth to any of it. Now I am left to pick up all the pieces and find my happy again.
I tell you all this because not because I want your sympathy, but because you will hear me say on occasion “how bad last year was” I just want you to know it’s not because of what happened in Bali, although that didn’t help my state of mind.
Heather has been a wonderful friend to me and was one person that really helped me get through some hard days. I remember one day she called me and she cried on the phone with me because she knew how much I was hurting. That’s a good friend and I will never forget her being there for me.
But with every bad thing comes something good. When I felt I was at my lowest I went to church and my life changed forever. I am excited to share my journey with you. Already people are reporting that my faith is “fake” or “I had no storyline” and all I can say to them is keep watching and I hope you are inspired by my story. I am not perfect and I never will be, but now I got the man upstairs helping me thorough life. You’ll see me slip up, make bad decisions and do things without thinking…that’s just me! Like I said if you don’t like it you can SUCK IT!
Thank you to all the teenagers and parents that have reached out to me on social media sharing their stories about parental alienation and how it affected their life. It’s helped me get through and understand a lot of things. Parental alienation is child abuse and needs to be recognized in the court of law.