After a busy day yesterday out in THE WORLD, I am narcoleptic today and slept right through this show this morning after attempting to get up and watch it. I am still half asleep at 3 p.m., yet valiantly, I will try to recap the important parts. As if we expect there to be any important parts.
Porsha says she feels brand new in 2014. She feels like she has a fresh new start as Porsha Williams. Bethenny asks, “So who is Porsha Williams?” Bethenny say that she felt like Porsha Stewart was Kordell’s plus one and that she was his meek little doll. I am going to try to write down EXACTLY what Porsha says because it’s usually just word salad. Porsha says, “You know when you are married are one with someone else. (um, noe, Bethenny did not know that, that was part of her whole problem) For me, I am getting back to being independent, I’m getting back to business, um, you know, I had been a child care center back before I was married. People don’t know that. Ima had two successful child care centers and I’m just getting back to what I know, and that builds me up and it fulfills me and it’s that sense of accomplishment. And for me that’s what I need. I need to be focused on business right now, romance a little, /giggles but focused on business.”/giggles
Bethenny says she wants to hear about the romance. But she wants to hear about the show, how is it going through something like that on the show? Porsha says, ” Well, I’ll tell you this, filming it wasn’t , um, I didn’t think about filming when I was filming it. I was just living my life. That was a very traumatic time, the cameras were there and they were capturing everything, so I mean, it was very, very real. So as the season progresses it actually shows all of that, romantically, financially, um,just, independence wise, it shows that growth so I can watch it when it gets to that but, in the beginning it’s like, oh, am I crying every episode? I’m like, oh my God!”
Bethenny asked what it was like coming on the show pretending to have it all. “Well, I felt like at the time, what you saw on television was what I wanted my marriage to look like. I wanted it to be successful so I acted like it was successful. So I felt, I had the mindset of fake it till we make it. You know at home behind closed doors this may not be what I’m living. But if we can act happy, maybe one day we will actually be happy. It just…if I act Fulfilled, maybe one day I will actually be fulfilled.”
Bethenny asked why she didn’t have a happy life. “It was just different things, you know, we were newlyweds, (um aren’t you still supposed to be happy then?) you know, it was just a lot of different things that got in between us. Main thing is communication. (because Porsha doesn’t have a firm grasp on communicating in English?) On the first episode, last season you see us going to counseling. I’m big on counseling. Because communication, if it’s a break down, that’s almost it. That’s like the death of the relationship right there.”
Bethenny asks about Kordell being controlling. ” Well with me being such and independent woman before (okay that time I was the one giggling) I got married. I made a choice to be that housewife what you saw. And I made a choice to make my family 100% you know (prime?) priority. So I at some point with in that being that I gave up so much to be a wife, I felt like I wasn’t being appreciated the way I should, which most wives do feel, and, that hurt me because I felt like I was giving so much.”
Bethenny asks if she felt like she lost herself in the relationship. She said she did and now getting back to Porsha she is remembering what she is worth, and the next guy that she is with better realize what she is worth.
Bethenny asks about Kordell being gay, Porsha says, ” Um the rumors as far as him being gay or what have you, that was there before we got married. What you see in the show, anything I say on the show, that is me living my truth. That is the way that I felt at the time. And that is what I stated on the show, I didn’t say he was this or that. What I said was I don’t know why. I am just happy and blessed to be in a whole nuther space right now. So whatever it is and however he wants to live, I hope he is happy. And I put so much into him for my happiness that I lost it. When you put so much of yourself into someone you are going to be let down. So I had to love me more than I loved him. And once that happened, I realized my dreams were more important than anybody else.”
Bethenny asked about the Towanda Braxton rumors. Porsha says that is what she has heard. She says she is “excited” The audience laughs. She says if she can make him happy, then that’s great.
Bethenny asks if she still loves him. She says she still has love for him. If something happens to him she would definitely be sad. (audience laughs). But she does not love him that way anymore. She would not take him back.
Bethenny asks about Kenya and who she is friends with and will be friends with in five years. Bethenny says it’s okay to say nobody because that is often the case. Porsha says she is not friends with Kenya. She doesn’t have time for fake friends. With regard to who Porsha will be friends with in five years she says, “The show is not really set up for you to be close, close friends right now because of the tension that has to be brought in and all that. I love Kandi, I just love her heart. um, Nene they are great girls so I can definitely see myself wanting to be friends and wanting to know how they are.” Bethenny clarifies about Kenya and Porsha says not Kenya.
Bethenny says that Nene wrote in her blog, “Porsha or Kenya have no clue about parenting, so let’s just let them say in their rooma nd do their fake hug and cry. I love it! Moving on! ” So how did that make you feel. Porsha says she thinks it is harsh to say she did not know anything about parenting. She was a parent to Kordell’s son for two years. So I think we act out when we get on the blog. We say harsh things for entertainment and we really don’t think about who we could be hurting.
Bethenny says you just moved into a new huge house. The audience gasps. Porsha screams out, “Ain’t God Good?” /giggles. Bethenny responds with, so, God gave you that house? Porsha says, “Absolutely.” Bethenny says how are you paying for the house? Porsha says she doesn’t know any grown woman who would answer how they pay their bills. Bethenny says, I will! Porsha says she has a hair company. She got the house on faith. Oh Lord. Bethenny says that she knows the hair is new, so that is not how she is buying the house. (actually she’s renting, buying would have been cheaper actually) Bethenny says she also knows what she makes on RHOA and that didn’t buy the house. I think Bethenny has no idea how much the MacMansions down here cost. You can buy a house like that for $500K or less if you drive an hour out of the city like Porsha did. Bethenny said, either your family helped you or Kordell helped you or something is going on. Bethenny then says it is none of her business and she doesn’t have to tell her, she just knows she can’t afford that house. Porsha says it is none of her business. She said she splurged on that house because she likes her family around. So to review, you move out of your mother’s home out into the hinterlands and buy a big ole empty house because you want to be around family. Porsha invites her over for dinner. Bethenny smooths things over by saying she would love to and RHOA is her favorite.
She asks Porsha if she is dating and she say, “Well, I am uh, there’s someone special. But I am keeping my options open. I’m just having a good time right now. When someone becomes serious enough for me to share him with the public, you know when you are dating someone in the public eye, you really want to make sure it is solid. Especially after what I have been through. ” Bethenny says, “So you are dating someone in the public eye?” Porsha gets flustered. Did I say that? I meant IF, IF I were dating someone in the public eye.
So do we know who Porsha is dating? Do we care?